Triple Nine



nice date huh?so on this special day,let's recap what happened for the past 9 months.ok here goes:

1.i turned sweet 16 in merry merry month of february!

2.i got my first C in my 16 years of life,for SEJARAH! in the weird month of march.

3.my sweet 16 birthday party was a blast! finally got to hang out with all my sisters.

4.i finally managed to get to a higher level in debate,state levels by defeating the so-called invincible high schoolers! wooo! :D that was also in march.

5.my first love confession in april,it was a mistake! and it was my past,i've moved on now,so far that i could hardly remember how it happened.

6.my first time singing in front of my favourite band,estranged! i had to sing 'remain unknown',that was on 4th june to be exact.

7.my first trip to Studio 21:05 owned by my 'cikgu',JD.also the first time he treated us to lunch,the first time we played monopoly with him and..*cough* the first embarrassing moment i've had this year,FALLING IN FRONT OF HIM! hahaha..that was on 6th june.

8.the day the whole world cried.the day my chilhood died.michael joseph jackson's passing :'( on 25th june.

9.i got a proposal! no,not to become anyone's wife but to be part of drummerboy's band! i was appointed as rhythm guitarist and he came to my house! YES IT'S A BIG DEAL! haha..damn.think i'm falling for him again.

so i guess that's about it,the nine highlights of year 2009.i shall enjoy the rest of the day now,by studying,lol.toodles.

-Yana
missing peter pan.

Farewell Peter Pan



he was the boy who ruled the kingdom of Neverland.he was the boy who led the Lost Boys.he was the boy who made flying possible for absolutely anyone.he was...the boy who never grew up.



sadly,today,after months of waiting,he is finally put to rest.he finally boards the voyage heading to the moon,that will be taking him to his real home.



when he left,the whole world cried tears of sorrow,depression and some even regret.when he left,my childhood left with him,and they disappeared into thin air leaving me with nothing.i feel empty inside,lifeless,dull and no longer exuberant as i used to be.it's as if a part of me had died.it's devastating and my heart aches for months now.unintendedly,my tears will flow on their own whenever i'm alone randomly thinking about it.i know i shouldn't grief for too long,but if only you knew how much he meant to me and the rest of the world who felt the same way as i do.i am glad he's in a better place now,where no one can hurt a pure,innocent soul such as his.his 'shell' may be gone,but i know,he's here,roaming the earth,looking over us like how he used to do when he was still with us.may you rest in peace,Peter Pan.run free,fly high! i know that's what you've always wanted to do,now go! we'll be watching,may we meet again someday.farewell peter my love,thank you for the wonderful childhood you gave me despite the fact that yours is almost non-existent.i hope you no longer bear any worries.we will continue what you have started for it is the only way to keep you alive for all eternity.



here's a little something i'd whisper in your ears if i had the chance to:

Your Legacy..
Your presence still I can feel,though we're far apart
Between the skies and the fields
Your melodies fillthe winds with a thousand joys
Walking us to the moon
Like dew at noon,you are gone too soon
Leaving the world to heal on its own
You have our word,no doubts,don't you worry
We'll always be there,you're never alone
You rock our world,this I'm telling you
You brought us love and all things new
You told us we are the world,we are the children
We unite as one,lifting eachother's burdens
You may be gone from our very eyes,
But your legacy lives on and never dies..

-Yana
among the Neverland children.

p/s:wonder if i can cope up with community service tomorrow,with all these depression in my chest.

Tribute by Maya Angelou

i found this beautiful so i just wanted to share it here..somehow,it managed to make me feel stronger..



"Beloveds, now we know that we know nothing, now that our bright and shining star can slip away from our fingertips like a puff of summer wind. Without notice, our dear love can escape our doting embrace. Sing our songs among the stars and walk our dances across the face of the moon.

In the instant that Michael is gone, we know nothing. No clocks can tell time. No oceans can rush our tides with the abrupt absence of our treasure. Though we are many, each of us is achingly alone, piercingly alone.
Only when we confess our confusion can we remember that he was a gift to us and we did have him.

He came to us from the creator, trailing creativity in abundance. Despite the anguish, his life was sheathed in mother love, family love, and survived and did more than that. He thrived with passion and compassion, humor and style. We had him whether we know who he was or did not know, he was ours and we were his.

We had him, beautiful, delighting our eyes. His hat, aslant over his brow, and took a pose on his toes for all of us. And we laughed and stomped our feet for him. We were enchanted with his passion because he held nothing. He gave us all he had been given.

Today in Tokyo, beneath the Eiffel Tower, in Ghana's Black Star Square. In Johannesburg and Pittsburgh, in Birmingham, Alabama, and Birmingham, England. We are missing Michael.

But we do know we had him, and we are the world."

We love you more.

-Maya Angelou
MJ's memorial speech,recited by Queen Latifah.