Friday, December 25, 2009


it's painful to still be awake at this hour to look back at all the cuts and bruises i had been experiencing the whole year.the year started out great and gradually went on a downfall,bringing me down along with my emotions.i'm still listening to Mika's's stupid to hurt yourself,but it hurts even more when the cuts refuse to heal.iam feeling internal depression like never before,as the year is approaching it's end.i don't even know what to do anymore,and i couldn't care less.let the happy days drown the pain.It's literally cold now and i'm shivering both from cold and excessive bitterness.dear Allah,assist me in facing this really tough time.

i blame myself.