another week,another wholesome episode,this time,the story takes a 180-degree turn when suddenly a lot of new characters appear and steal the limelight from the existing ones.as i said,i should know that this is bound to get messy as long as it's love.i haven't been seeing alex too much this week,i wonder if he's avoiding me?or is it just me?on a happier note,i tried out a quiz on what's the best way for me to confess my love to Lex and i got this:
Dear Azliyana Azlee, from the test result, here is best way for you to tell someone that you love them:
FACE-TO-FACE
웃 : Just go to see him or her and let he/she know how you feel,
웃 : straight from the heart.
웃 : That would be okay for a brave one like you.
웃 : Just go to see him or her and let he/she know how you feel,
웃 : straight from the heart.
웃 : That would be okay for a brave one like you.
FACE TO FACE?? that's crazy,man.seriously,i can't even say 'hi' to him,and the quiz maker is actually expecting me to confess,moreover FACE TO FACE?probably it will happen,but not this year.i predict that i will be able to do that before i truly leave school officially,that is,in march 2011.overrated but i have to say that it's not impossible as i have about 10months from now to prepare what to say and how i should say it.let's just keep our fingers crossed and hope that i won't mess up at the very last minute.by then,the whole school shall know how much i love Alex Luthor.
Monday,7.30am
i was still exhausted from all the fuss from the trip to UM for that BM Skor A talk.it was worth the money i guess,we did have fun after all.i was half asleep when puan mazni called upon 'The All Active Rejects' team (consisting Nizar and I) to receive our prizes for getting first place in the Newton's Law Race.all the winners of various contests were requested to gather in 4 abu bakar as the teacher-in-charge gave us a little briefing regarding our turns etc.mr carlos garcia was there,and i had the feeling that he knew something that he shouldn't know.throughout the briefing,i noticed him turning towards me several times,for Lord knows what.no it's not a lovey-dovey kind of look,it was more of a 'i know something,you can't hide it from me' kind of thing.creepy.i decided to avoid him this whole week so as to not make it seem obvious that i used him.selfish but true.i thought he wouldn't mind,but clearly he did.oh dear god..what have i done.
Tuesday,1.30pm
again,i looked for Lex but he was nowhere to be found.where could that loverboy be?i did indeed see him,but only for a split second,and that's never enough.i keep seeing carlos with his spiteful facial expression,walking down the hallway,passing my class repeatedly.should i apologize?if i didn't,i would have guilt written all over me but if i did,what if he's not mad the first place?what if he didn't even know who's the sender? hmm... what a major dilemma.meanwhile,teacher's day was coming up,so my gang decided to attend the audition for the teacher's day performance.'aisyah requested me to collaborate with aqil muaz to play guitar for the background music of our performance.it was pretty slow since i wasn't too familiar with their song selections,nevertheless,it was fun detecting everything by ear.inaccurate but at least we tried.
6.30pm
I'M LATE!!! dammit.and it's the first day of my double chemistry classes,consisting form 4 and form 5.had to be with the 16-year-olds to relearn all the stuff i missed out on/didn't take seriously.i feel so young for a change! haha.mr zeelen is excellent,as always.i never get bored in his class,if only..if only the school teachers were this interesting XD
i turned and looked around,to look for alex,hoping that he would show up.to much disappointment,he didn't.so ling approached me,wanting to tell me something but it just had to wait since i had to do my maghrib prayers.just as i came out from the multilab,ling gave me a shock.as i giggled,i turned around,only to find that i almost hit alex's chest! dammit.so much for being smoothie all the time.i got nervous,blushed and rushed into the class,trying to act like nothing happened.the class was fun as usual.the end of the class was even more interesting.i wanted to wait for ling to finish deciding which complementary teddy bear key chain she loved the most,lmao..but then it was taking too long so i decided to take the stairs so burn some so-called calories.unfortunately,ben was there.god...i wanted to run so fast!!!! but he meant no harm,he wanted to ask me about my teacher's day performance.i didn't tell him much,partly because i hate him,LOL,and because it was getting creepy as he came closer and closer to me in the dim-lit stairway.i was afraid he might harass me like what he did to my junior.i ran into Guardian as soon as i reached the ground floor.by then,i heard his group making a big fuss.i assumed they might've thought that i was still in the store.i went out and overheard them talking about me.i couldn't really make up their conversation but one thing's for sure,perhaps they had a bet whether or not ben will be able to get a chance to talk to me.how suckish,being used as a betting point.how dumb is that? CONGRATULATIONS SPAZ! fudge off,please.
Wednesday,1.30pm
again,another day another so-called rehearsal with the band at school.band?what band?? haha.there were practically only 2 guitarists and tonnes of vocalists.nice jam,we're improving a little bit eventhough we didn't get to jam as much as we planned.so during lunch,we all sat together at the canteen in one group.i saw marlon from a distance and waved at him,at the moment deila was with me.to my surprise,he totally ignored me and walked off.gosh..what in heavens is wrong with him?i let it go anyway,it wasn't worth it since i obviously know i did nothing wrong to him.i saw aqil and 'aisyah in one corner at the canteen so i joined them.deila left for her club meeting.i sat and watched aqil playing naufal's guitar.this guy's got skills man! awkwardly enough,marlon stood behind me.i don't know why,i just didn't feel like greeting him after that ironic indifference.he somehow said hi to me and sat beside me.before we knew it,we were once again engaged in a long conversation by which was eventually interrupted by ben.i've had enough of ben and marlon,so i went back home.
Thursday,3.30pm
i skipped the mathematics tutorial (okay let's just say i skipped all the tutorials this week) since i was extremely exhausted.i just didn't feel like going at all,so i stayed home and compensated my night sleep with my usual power nap.however,i OVERSLEPT! i swear,i've never taken such a short period of time to get dressed to attend the routine weekly computer club meeting.i ran,with my mp3 in my ears.the song playing at random was fast-paced,very favourable indeed.i reached school and went straight to the computer lab.upon my arrival,i saw marlon staring at me,delighted much?i don't know.i don't read minds,sorry.he was sitting with his friends in a group,watching Paranormal Activity.i sat beside anis as usual,we managed to do our homework despite the lousy movie they had on the projector.at that very moment,the only thing that keeps ringing in my mind is ily's theory about marlon.oh god.first ben,now that ben's off the hook it's marlon? what's next... ily refused to barge from her stand,she requested me to test marlon.i knew i saw marlon in his group,and it was a major relief.she might be wrong,i thought.when anis left for the ladies',her chair was empty so i purposely asked zufar to sit beside me,on my left.on my right was anis' empty chair.i proceeded my work,just then,i heard someone saying hi to me.oh shit..no,don't tell me.i turned,it was marlon.okay,don't overreact,he came in front to watch the movie.nope,the theory's wrong.it's iron man 2,who wouldn't wanna watch it right? just then,he sat beside me,setting all of anis' stuff aside.WTF! this was normal before but now it's getting weird,especially when he asked me why wasn't i in class.were you looking for me,marlon?you're acting pretty weird lately.is there something you've been subliminally trying to get my attention on?you can always tell me as a good friend.the thought went on and on until basketball practice.i lost focus several times,and got my head acidentally hit by my own ball several times.ouch,yes it was painful.
Friday,7.00am
i didn't feel like going to school.my head hurts and i didn't do my homework.i was sort of in pain so i decided to burn the whole night going on the net.crazy,i know.i can't get the thought out of my mind.the thought about ily saying that her theory was true.the thought about will i ever talk to alex if i keep being a wimp and chicken off in his presence.everything.all in one.i walked up the stairs leading to the hall,and to much surprise,again,i almost hit alex with my bag.i had a major shock and i can't tell you how fast my heart was beating.i wanted to apologize but i guess a cat got my tongue.i just couldn't.i stared into his eyes,hoping that he would understand that i've been thinking of him all day and all night.i sped up my walking pace as i was blushing a little too much,and alex was then out of sight.i couldn't help but stare in his direction as soon as i reached my seat.
8.25pm
one of the most beautiful things had once again occurred.a miraculous eye to eye contact with alex luthor when he tried to interrupt ily's conversation with mr loke regarding our EST assignment.lex,i'm glad i'm no longer a wall to you :) i need you to know one thing.you may be vertically challenged,you may not be as smart as some of your conceited friends,you may not be the perfect guy that every girl wants,but to me,you'll always be the tallest,smartest and most perfect guy for me.and the thing about you that makes you special compared to everyone else are your eyes.they twinkle and they resemble an entrance to a parallel realm,yet to be explored
what did i say,what did you do?
how did i fall in love with you?
