Friendly Goodbye

"Ain't that a “b” with an itch
Ain't that a mother trucker
You can go to h-e-double hockey sticks
And f yourself
Cause I'm flippin' gosh darn sick
Of all the “s” words you put me through
So f-u"

-Friendly Goodbye by Bowling For Soup

well I guess,once again,I've outdone myself.it wasn't an easy decision to let my guards down and tame my giant ego,but in the end,I did it.i have a strong feeling it's going to be worth it.i haven't done this (giving credits to myself) for years! i need it,very badly now,just for the sake of re-boosting my temporarily fallen self-esteem.it's hard to believe a spoiled brat like me could actually grow out of my bad temper for once and take the blame for someone else's fault.i'm proud of myself,seriously.i didn't tremble nor doubt even a bit.it actually took shorter time and went smoother than i had expected.i don't care if everyone finds out (if?they already have).i know what i'm doing.i've set my priorities straight and i don't think anything or anyone will ever be able to change it in anyway.it's better to take the blow now while things are just about to develop rather than getting a wound while things are supposed to be stable already.a matter of now or never.

"This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along"

- Pieces by Sum 41

guys and girls,my brothers and sisters,thanks for being there for me through thick or thin.i'll be okay :)