anniversary

My First Love



haha.sorry to have started off by laughing.it's funny.hello people! do you remember your first love?i know I do.it's one of the most memorable things that happened in my entire life.my first love was funny,really.who would've guessed that my first boyfriend was my arch enemy himself?let's just address him as mr A.this dude was the class monitor at school and all he does was make my everyday life miserable in every chance he gets i.e: whenever all of us are required to pass up our books,he'll surely steal mine and keep it to himself just to get me into trouble.another incident was when i wrote a letter to his friend.he got jealous somehow,so he handed the letter to the teacher in charge.luckily the teacher was open-minded enough to accept it,so he made a fool out of himself,clearly.the teacher pointed out the fact that he was envious of his friend.and of course,the love confession was the funniest part.he basicly picks a fight with me and left my crying throughout recess.when i was alone,he approached me and confessed that he liked me.damn~ i was shocked i couldn't speak a word! that was the first time someone was daring enough to do so.eventually,he grew onto me and we fell for eachother.so many memories~
yet,the story ended when i found out that he was cheating on me.i gave him chances,but far too many.i decided to break up and refuse to speak to him ever again.as years go by,after my three-year old relationship came to an end,he wanted to get back together with me but clearly i wouldn't want to repeat the same mistake.then of course,my signature 'death glare' was how i greet him whenever we bump into eachother by accident.it's funny,i was clearing my stuff and again,i found my old diary.there was one part,written JUNE 1ST 2004.that was our anniversary,today!

so,HAPPY ANNIVERSARY SAYANG.SOMETIMES I DO MISS BEING YOUR BABY.HOWEVER,BEAR IN MIND,I DON'T MISS YOU,I MISS WHO I THOUGHT YOU WERE.WISH THINGS WERE BETTER,BUT THANKS ANYWAY,FOR GIVING ME ONE OF THE BEST ENDINGS TO A STORY OF MY FIRST LOVE.

and also,thanks to these people who brought me back to reality.an epiphany much needed this time round.these are the things they said:
jijie: go on with your life babe.
shu wan: if he's really that bad,then forget him.
rin: move on babe,delete him from your life.you always have us behind you.
tris: you have to learn to let go.let bygones be bygones.
naz: dahla beb,dah takde jodoh mcmana.andai jodoh tak kemana,percayala cakap i.

missing note: oh,i had fun on Sunday with shu wan,chew chew,yenny,zoe and ivan at the cinema watching Night At The Museum 2.'twas fun! i can't over the singing greek romance Gods and the Tiki.

Yana
-"hey dum dum,when r u gonna gimme some gum gum?" haha~

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Hiding It


hello there people.here's what's been happening to me these pass few days.a few days ago,my whole band was in cloud nine.all of us finally thought that we're now a complete cast,but hell,it was just a mere assumption.not even 3 days people,3 DAYS,and the f***er quit the band.i wasn't really pissed off about him quitting the band,it's just the fact that he stated a few reasons why he did so.
1.our band doesnt seem to commit to eachother (WTF!!!!)
2.our music won't get us anywhere (WTFFFFFFF squared!!!)
damn i was so pissed off i can't even recall what my argument was.he was questioning our talent.come to think of it,who needs such bandmates anyway?better off without himmm~

and so the day after,i found out that i think maybe it might be a tough thing to get over him.i mean,why should he be so lovable??damn~ .i tried to find the bad in him,so i could get on with life,but what happens is,the more i talk to him,the closer i feel to him,and the deeper i fall for him.but i dun really show it,sneaky me,LOL.



dun think i'll ever get enough of him,haiz~.me and my stupid love story,and look at the time.i keep telling him,and everyone around me that i'm no longer in love.i tried hard but to no avail.ah well,let's just treat him like a choc bar,hehe..

love u much you charming stalker you! and u dun even hv to know that i'm treating u like my choc bar,haha..

Yana
-fickle-minded as can be,still waiting for 4th june to come.