Empty

i hate these feelings.they make me sick.i hate that i love you too much at times.i hate pretending to be alright.i hate pretending not to miss you.

and what i hate the most is..

i hate the way we ignore each other despite making eye contacts.what have we got to lose?today's incident made me feel empty.if only there's a way for me to walk up to you and tell you how much i miss you.it's been more than 3 weeks since we last spoke to each other,and the 2-week school holidays will make it 5 weeks.

i laugh,i smile,i joke.but inside i feel empty.talk to me,please..