'...I Would Never Forget This".

in the middle of this writer's block syndrome,my friend (and co-guitarist on Teacher's Day) Aqil requested me to write this to help him improve his English.out of sympathy and my ehem...kind-heartedness,wakaka..i agreed.to be perfectly honest,i'm not that good in story writing so here goes nothing...

Google Map Crisis (by Azliyana Azlee)

It was a chilly Sunday morning,the windows were all fogged up by the mist outside and there was a gentle shower.In spite of the drizzle,there were occasional roars of thunder every now and then,indicating how bad a day it was to have my usual morning walks.I had a glimpse at the clock on my wall,it was only 7.00am and I could just tuck myself in and return to bed if I wanted to but considering how much I love to wake up early,I decided not to.Instead,I switched on my computer and made up my mind to clean up the hard disks.As I was clearing the underused files,I found an album under the ‘My Pictures’ folder filled with photos of my visit to a recording studio which belonged to my friend,JD.”Ahh,good times,” i sighed delightedly.It was then,I started to recall how it came to be.

The memories came back into my mind as if it happened just yesterday.It was in the month of June when school was out for two whole weeks.I was in Form 4,which ,in a Malaysian student’s context,happened to be a ‘honeymoon year’ since we had no major examinations to worry about.That was the most perfect time to enjoy our holidays spending time with our friends.My friend and I were initially planning to watch a concert together on one of the Saturdays but unfortunately the event was cancelled due to technical reasons relating to the venue and organisers.Disappointed,we stayed at home and were doing nothing but our usual boring routine of watching movies and playing our favourite computer games,Left 4 Dead and Counter Strike.They seemed fun at first,but after awhile we got tired of them.Just then,my friend suddenly broke out into a smile and suggested ,” Hey,since we’ve got nothing to do,why don’t we visit JD’s studio and keep him company?I’m sure he wouldn’t mind,he’s been dying to have visitors in his studio for ages!” “Yeah,why not?” we replied.

We rang his phone to confirm our visit,and he sounded so excited to finally have guests in his studio,after all,he is a lone ranger in the studio whenever his bandmates are not around to jam with him.One of my other friends,Ejay agreed to pick us all up from our respective homes to get to JD’s studio in Taman Tun Dr Ismail.”Are you sure you know where my studio is?” asked the worried JD on the phone who was more than aware of our bad sense of directions.”Of course we do,what’s the use of Google maps if we don’t use them well right?” I answered,almost egoisticly.”Very well,phone me or send me a text message once you’ve arrived,I need to do some finishing touches on this song before giving you a little tour.I’ll see you ladies later,” said JD before hanging up.Just then,the signal bars in our phones went down.The phone coverage there was really bad and the Google Map application was of no use at all! It was up to our instincts to decide which roads to head to.We did not want JD to know that all of us were hopeless when it comes to looking for the right directions.For that,we had ourselves driving around in circles for almost two hours.

Everyone set back quietly while eyeing the signboards by the roads in our pathetic attempt to get the right directions.Assumptions after assumptions were made.”Maybe it’s that road!” “No,turn left!” “Make a U-turn at that junction!” However,none of us were right in any way. After a while,it was complete solitude again as everyone started to give up on themselves.“Girls,we’ve been driving for hours now,don’t you think we’re..lost?” said Rin,breaking the awkward silence in our car.”Nonsense! I doubt that we’re lost,we’re already familiar with this are,aren’t we?” blurted Yaya,covering up our weakness.”Look,we’ve been driving around for hours,this gets us no where,there’s no use.And on top of that ,I think I just heard my stomach rumbling ,what if we get ourselves something to eat before calling JD to ask for the real directions to his studio instead?” I suggested . Everyone nodded weakly in agreement and we eventually headed to the nearest fast food outlet to order our food at the drive-through counter. Suddenly, we heard a loud honk behind our car.We looked out the window,only to find JD waving at us. “ Hey girls,what are you doing here?I was expecting you girls hours ago,I was thinking of buying all of you lunch to enjoy in the studio.Are you lost?” “Well,not to say that we are,but we did have troubles with our Google Map application in our phones,” I said with an embarrassed grin.”Well then,come follow me.I’ll lead you to the studio,” he said,simultaneously trying to hold in his laughter.”About your food,it’s on me so don’t worry,” he added.

As soon as we arrived, he gave us a cheeky smile while mocking us “See girls, technology can be unreliable at times.One lesson to learn,always ask when in doubt.” We giggled at our own foolishness and reminded ourselves to never give in to our ego anymore. He then showed us everything in his studio including the recording gears,musical instruments and even the new soundproof room that was still under construction.We were thrilled as it was ur first time stepping into an actual recording studio.After the tour was over,he put on some music and all of us participated in a mind-building game of Monopoly.It lasted for three hours,including our small talks in between.We did not expect that our visit would actually turn our better than we predicted.Our exhaustion from all the driving paid off as we had had a whale of a time with each other.This is ironically one of the most adventurous trips I have ever had with my friends .Apart from all the joyous times we had,I have also learnt a very valuable lesson along the way,that is to always admit my weakness and remain humble.I would never forget this.

-well some of it are true,mostly fictitious,whatever it is,hope you like it bro.that's the best i can do,for now.hehe.good luck for your SPM buddy! ace your English,man! lest i'll be very disappointed :p

Say It Again :)

"The thing about love is I never saw it comin'
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wonderin'
Is this true? I wanna hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
(Just a little closer)
Take it to a whisper
(Woah)
Get just a little louder
(Yeah)

Say it again for me
?Cause I love the way it feels when you are
Tellin' me that I'm
The only one who blows your mind

Say it again for me
It's like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you're in love
Say it again

The thing about you
(About you)
Is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there's no end in sight

The thing about me is that I really wanna let you
(Really wanna let you)
Open that door
(Open that door)
And walk into my life

And it feels like
It's the first time
That anybody's ever brought
The sun without the rain

And never
In my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful
As when you say my name"

-Say It Again by Marie Digby.

as i tweeted,it's been 3 days yet my phone,twitter,formspring and even this blog is still flooded with congratulations.thank you God for the gift of love. :) happy 3 days,baby? haha.

KD10.. I'm In Love!

"It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best.. when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd (the crowd)
Try as they may they can never define
What's been said between your heart and mine"

When You Say Nothing At All by Ronan Keating :)

i remember you writing this in your status that day after our field trip to Petrosains.back then i didn't know whom it was for,even if i do i wasn't as sure.yesterday,Deila told Miss On about us,well not really 'us',rather,our gossip ,how we're being matchmade.and today,Prasad came to my table carrying an envelope saying "Azliyana,this is from Mubin".it took me a few minutes to stabilize,mental and emotional wise before actually reading what's inside.God knows how happy i felt once i did.

you seem to have said everything that i wanted to tell you.i have nothing more to say.

i love you too,NAZIRUL MUBIN BIN MOHD IZWAN :)

AND YES! I'M YOURS...

Basketball Fever III - Rugby Breakout

seriously,my SACRUM hurts now.today,Nizar and I had a last minute basketball match or rather,our Shoot or Dare session once again while we weren't actually planning to play today.i knew something was gonna be amiss,if it's not the weather.everything was just normal until the seniors came by.they first conquered half the court while we were in the other.suddenly,they had a fierce match and Azita knocked me down so hard that i fell flat on my bottom -_- worse comes worse,both palms of my hands were slightly injured when i tried to reduce the impact of the fall by supporting my body with my bare hands.it hurt,a lot and Nizar and i ended up chatting in the canteen instead of continuing our game.talk about a rugby breakout,i don't blame Azita,it was the seniors who were to keen in proving their strength compared to the juniors (in this case,it's us).it was terrible but that won't stop me from playing basketball again tomorrow,but i might need to come earlier so as to stay away from the seniors.shish..the nerve of some people..well at least Milin and Azita were kind enough to be concerned of my condition.it wasn't much of a bad injury,rather it's a minor one,yet enough to traumatize me.now i'm afraid of tall people more than ever -_- funny stuff is,Azita's tall and skinny but his knockout impact equals to Amirul Bob's! haha.nevertheless,we had fun anyway in the end.

This Is How You Remind Me Of What I Really Am

All questions were asked by Marco in real life when he confronted me in a middle of an actual yet casual conversation.nothing serious,it's a normal talk and he didn't mean business.i DID.

1.Marco: i can see that you seldom smile and you're pretty much quiet in class,are you keeping something to yourself?you can always tell me to release it from your mind,i'm all ears.

Me :me?quiet? are you kidding me,i was never an introvert to begin with,you must have seen me while i was coincidentally running out of things to say and to talk about.

My Mind:yes i do have a problem,it's YOU.i've fallen for you and you're still TOO BLUR to REALISE! i'm in a dilemma regarding how to express it to you.

2.Marco:why is it that sometimes when we bump into each other you'll avoid looking at me?was it something i did or said?

Me :i have so many things going through my mind,my future,my results,the exams,school stuff..it's all been crammed into my head and i'm in a large amount of stress at the moment,i'm so tensed that i can't even see what's before me,be it a person or sometimes even lamp posts.

My Mind:it's good that you've noticed,why the feck are you still blur about it?YES you did a BIG mistake,you STOLE my heart and refuse to give it back.for that,i want yours in return :)

3. Marco:seriously,you've been in a relationship before?? i know i haven't,and i'm totally unexperienced about it.

Me :yes i have,thrice and i regret ever giving them a chance.it might take quite awhile for me to heal from the previous heartbreak,i might not be in another relationship at all,it's possible.

My Mind:yes i have but i bet NONE of them can ever beat you :) you're incomparable and i guess no one can deny that,nor do they have the rights to prove me wrong in any way.

4.Marco:will you teach me guitar after our exams?

Me :sure,why not,i'd be free with nothing to do but eat and sleep all day anyway.

My Mind:sure,if you let me into your life :)

"This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breakin'
I've been wrong, I've been down
To the bottom of every bottle
Despite words in my head
Scream "Are we having fun yet?"
Yet?, Yet?, Yet?, no no

It's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
It must have been so bad
Cause living with me must have damn near killed you"

How You Remind Me by Nickelback.

Basketball Fever II

today was awesome despite the 'his' absence.it started off with our usual Shoot or Dare game which then evolved into a 3 on 3 match against the boys. a little tough to be perfectly frank since only Nizar and i were girls while the other 4 were boys.Nabeel and Amin were on my team while Hazem and Aizat were on Nizar's.we lost but it was hell of a fun!see you guys this friday ;)

All In One

R.I.P Paul,i never really trusted in your predictions although some of them turned out to be true,yet i did find you adorable :( can't believe you're gone.

jerin,leh x kita cancel plan bunuh membunuh tu?aku mcm..terjatuh hati balik plak :') entah,omputeh ckp distance makes the heart fonder,bila ada jarak,ada rindu..bila ada rindu,ada baliklah syg tu.hrpn tipis dan palsu tp nk wat mcmana :( for now,kita KIV (keep in view or dlm bhs kita,simpan dlm poket) dululah.

i love youuuuuuuu karutologik! ahaha.wish i had more time talking to you,you're an interesting person lah sya ;) guys,click on her quote up here to read her blog.i can assure you,she's an awesome writer.

initially,i wanted to review the P Ramlee song covers by the local bands which premiered last night but i decided that i have much more to say than just that.but i can't guarantee i'll be writing them in a proper form anyway,hehe.

so anyway,it started off with the cover of P Ramlee's "Maafkan Kami" by Altimet.i really loved the blend of old and new contemporary music,it gives a new tinge of element in the song which makes it more interesting.Altimet has really done a good job with the song considering his signature rap r&b concept seems to fit the song pretty well.

"Malam Bulan DIpagar Bintang" covered by Awanband also deserves a compliment.their rockband concept gives some sort of new atmosphere to the song whereby the arrangement sounds more to rock rather than the original ballad.4 stars!

however,i wasn't too fond of Azlan and the Typewriters' rendition of Jeritan Batinku,same goes with Bittersweet's attempt to cover Getaran Jiwa.their arrangements were a bit too exaggerated and became a major turn-off when the music do not compliment the lyrics.i guess they could've done a better interpretation of the songs but i don't blame them.nice effort though.

not to be biased but i find that overall,the best covers of P Ramlee songs should be given credit to Pop Shuvit,Couple,Grey Sky Morning and Hujan who covered Menche Che Bujang Lapok,Malam Pesta Muda Mudi,Aci Aci Buka Pintu and Tunggu Sekejap respectively.the arrangements,the additional musical bridges,the riffs,the different feels,i guess all those had really done the songs some justice.

all in all,i guess all the local musical acts have done a great job covering the legendary P ramlee's compositions.may he live forever through his music,keep his art alive people. :) al Fatihah to him,may Allah bless his soul,amin.

...and Marco,i'm glad you're alright.sorry for ignoring you,i was stupid.i hope you'll be ok.

Very Last Time vs A Burger Review

"Very Last Time"

Music by: Jennifer Chung & Johnny Yang
Lyrics by: Jennifer Chung

LYRICS:
What? What am I supposed to do with you?
Then again you're really not the issue
It's a battle within myself,
And I don't need your help.

Why? Why am I getting so confused?
The feelings gone, I don't even like you.
Then tell me why is it that sometimes
I can't look you in the eyes.

You did me wrong,
And you knew all along
That you weren't ready
But I'm holding steady
So I hope you hear this song.

This is my goodbye.
No longer will I try.
'Cause I'm leaving, and you've hurt me for the very last time.

How? How did I even get here?
This is the very place that I feared.
In a position where I wonder if you cared for me at all.

Who? Who was it that made me believe,
That you and I were supposed to be.
Well it doesn't matter, 'cause in the end.


When I, I think
Of all the these questions -- with no answers my heart begins to sink.

Do you realize?
Well, it doesn't matter 'cause I'm living, breathing, & feeling so alive."

let's focus on the finer things in life,for instance this burger i tasted today.McDonald's never fail to tingle my taste buds to the maximum degree,can i just say that their new black pepper chicken Mcdeluxe burger is probably extra terrestrial?beyond words of compliments to say the very least.the original chicken mcdeluxe didn't impress me but this new and improved one certainly did.believe you me when i say i only took a split second to indulge it..poof! it's gone into my system :D amazing! i give it a 4/5 rating for the taste and price.yes i know,i'm beauty conscious and i can't help but going on a crash diet to keep my weight optimum at all times,BUT this is a major exception really.what's the harm of having occasional fast food anyway? ;) you only live once,doesn't mean you can't screw up your balanced meal once in a while right?plus,i guess it's safe to say that my sudden passion for burgers came out of my recent frustration with a certain issue (relating to the heart and mind,pardon you).it's not easy to deal with thus,my appetite grows with my mood.i really really REALLY have to urgently get this passion out of my vocabulary soon,i wouldn't wanna end up fat when i reach 18.NOOOOOOOO way!

speaking of food,i did come up with quite a number of food-for-thought quotes on twitter,feel free to pass them around without crediting me,because all those came from God's inspiration,passed down to me through human intelligence,which also happens to be of God's own :)

Food for thought 1#: do not criticize people without reflecting on your own weaknesses first.such attitude gets you nowhere,bear in mind.

interpretation: it's self-explanatory,humility is honorable,under any circumstances.

Food for thought 2#: temper is called a tantrum when you're a child,a bad mood when you're a teenager and a syndrome when you're a fully-developed adult.

interpretation: everyone has a right to be angry,upset or merely dissatisfied of something but no matter what,they should not let anger take control of their minds.

happy Monday everyone,have a productive week!

Inconsolable

"I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor
when i let you walk away tonight
Without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh
If you were here right now, I swear,
I'd tell you this

CHORUS:
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all i ever wanted, it comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no.
I memorized the number
So why can't i make the call
Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility (ohh)


I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything that i hold in
'Cause everything that i can't let go (can't let go, yeah)"

-Inconsolable by Backstreet Boys

you're worrying me but i haven't forgiven you yet...

Mathematically Problematic Emotions

there's a significance with this prefix (other than Mega units)

that only I would know.

but without any conversions...

the prefix is pointless..but what if we add 143 to it?

1 = I

4= Love

3= You

I Love You this much,M ...

i guess it's saying something now.but there's a problem..

what if it's not mutual?what if it's dejavu?

what if it's not meant to be?

what if......

if you were me,what would it be,yes or no?

Pixel-blogging 1# : Season of Change

photoblogging has caught my heart for the past few days,quoting Sya Ezral, "a photo's worth 1000 words". :)

if pick-pockets are an offense to this extent....

heart theft should be taken seriously too..

in other words,why not beat the shit out of the guys who steal

the girls' hearts,with or without the intention of breaking it?pffffttt..

change isn't only about revolving into something new or autumn despite the popular

notion that change and the four seasons come hand in hand...

it's rather changing into something new and IMPROVED,maintaining the old ways.

To Be Four-eyed or Not To Be Four-eyed

"Looking forward to the future,but my eyesight is going bad and this crystal

ball is always cloudy except for when you look into the past.."

-Thks Fr Th Mmrs by Fallout Boy

should i get myself a pair of glasses?i'm short-sighted in a way,must be the excessive exposure to dynamic visuals,or in other words,staring at the pc screen for too long.the consequence of living on the internet,pffft psshh.BUT,some say i could still prevent it by consuming a diet rich in vitamin A.carrots?

i tweeted about this before a month ago asking whether or not it's gonna be annoying if i suddenly made a decision to get myself a pair of glasses which will eventually make me dependent on them,and i got these replies:

"well, yes it's gonna feel weird at 1st. but u'll get use to it n with time won't even realize its there. it's only gonna be an annoyance when u started to misplace it n ur original eyes are useless when trying to find it back. haish.." - Kak Halie

"not at all,but then again i started wearing when i was 10" - JD or CIkgu J.

whether it's a yes or no,i'll have to decide after my SPM so as to avoid any forms of discomfort.the thought of ending up looking like Ugly Betty frightens me a lot,yikes!

My Only Afi

"need a haircut,Afi?you're just like me,in tune yet so messed up"

you're my first,probably not my last,but for now,my only one.i love you my Afi :)

you can never know what kind of a bond a guitarist has with his/her guitar unless you're one

of us.

So Yesterday :)

"If it's over, let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away

Laugh it off let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay

You can say you're bored - if you wanna
You can act real tough - if you wanna
You can say you're torn
But I've heard enough

Thank you... you made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me
Do you see a single tear
It isn't gonna happen here
At least not today, not today, not today
'cause

If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, what is left to do
How can you hang up if the line is dead
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead
If you're moving on, I'm already gone
If the light is off then it isn't on
At least not today, not today, not today"

- "So Yesterday" by Hilary Duff.

the song says it all :') i don't think there's anything more that anyone could ever say or do to reverse the effect.broken hearts are not elastic,once shattered they won't be the same.sya was right.

"budak a_au_ memang heartbreakers".i'm not gonna fall for anymore of your nonsense,hit the road buddy.nice knowing ya.we could still be friends but don't get your hopes up too much that we're gonna be as close as before.from this day onwards,i've learnt my lesson the hard way day after day and i'm tired of the same old routine sayings and so-called 'love scenes'.it doesn't exist,never have never will.i'm DONE.time has come for me to grow up and realise that i'm gonna die an old bitter woman with 13 black cats,love is just not my thing.i may have a lil bit of brains,self-esteem,musical skills,creativity and such,but not love.love does not exist in my vocabulary,it's too subjective for proper definition and too overrated to be bothered.why do i even try?you're not mine so be it,but why are you treating me as if i'm yours?do you think i love the feeling of being owned unless it's for a joke?come on man,you know better how fragile my feelings are don't you?or do you not care at all?who gives a damn,if it's not meant to be then it's not,i'm gonna have to accept that for the 3rd time and just move on.there's more to life anyway :) look,i'm gonna let you go,once and for all,and if you need me,let me know because i'm tired of waiting or rather,in the words of Enrique Iglesias,i'm tired of being sorry for myself.it's about time...good bye,if not forever then for now.

-taking the 'M' out of SPM.

Only Exception or Another Mistake?

"When I was younger I saw my daddy
cry and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and
I watched as he tried to re-assemble it.
And my mamma swore she would
never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if does not exist.
But darling..

You are the only exception (x4)

Maybe I know somewhere deep in
my soul that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable, distance.
And up until now I swore to myself
that I'm content with loneliness,
'cause none of it was ever worth the risk.

But you are the only exception (x4)

I've got a tight grip on reality,
but I can't let go of whats part of me here.
I know you're leaving in the morning, when you wake up,
leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream.

Whooa..

You are the only exception (x8)
And I'm on my way to believing.. (x2)"

- Only Exception by Paramore

did i mention Paramore's coming to town and i can't go? :(

anyway....

this post goes especially to my best friend Hadzrin aka Jerin,this is for you.thanks for waking me up from this absurdity,thanks for kicking me back into reality,thanks for helping me end such a surreal dream,thanks for bringing me back on my feet when i was in cloud nine heading for an unexpected crash.you're a true friend and i'll always appreciate you the same no matter what,even when i'm married in the future.i'm gonna stop trying because it's not worth it anymore,i've been in this route it seems and i'm making the same mistakes,you made me realise that and made me turn to a new route.thank you thank you thank you,i love you best friend :) (not 'that' kind of love,more to a best friend kind of love,hehe).

it's safe to say... GOOD BYE MR M! hello SPM :)

"so,so what?? i'm still a rockstar,i got my rock moves,and i don't need you! guess what,i'm having more fun and now that we're done i'm gonna show you tonight i'm alright! i'm just fine!"

-So What? by Pink.

blasting my headphones with punk rock tunes,i know that's not a proper way to handle depression but it seems to be my perfect way in doing it.so be it..say what you wanna say,i'm me.

glad my Afi will always be there through thick or thin.

Afi's Minor Operation - Destring,Cleaning,Restring

talk about hard work.i needed to convince my mom into taking me all the way to Damansara Perdana to get a new set of strings for upgrading purposes,get a metronome/tuner (of which i named R2D2)

and then go through 6 adventurous hours of detaching the 8 gauge strings (or as Cikgu J would call it,fishing line) and then upgrading them to a set of 10 gauge strings.and the result:

Cikgu said there's a little excess string but it could be rectified with

more practice.

which is why i think i need to do a 'follow-up treatment' on Afi.his low E string and A string is making some really annoying buzzing noises when i pick them,must be the improper winding.need to show Cikgu the adjustments,ahhhhh... hehe.i hate letting him down,he goes all out to mold me into a guitarist as amazing as he is.

speaking of high expectations,i'm guessing my Chemistry and Physics teachers have such high hopes in seeing me ace in their respective subjects too,especially Puan Tang Wan See.earlier today,not to brag but it must have been my day,my Chemistry marks (although not even close to my actual target) seem to be quite something to be proud of.there was once,in Chemistry class,Puan Tang asked us a question,a tough one,and said "if even Azliyana can't answer this,i'm gonna vomit blood".funny?you wish,if you were in my shoes,it wouldn't be as funny.it just shows how high she expects of me and it's not that i'm complaining,it's just that,i'm afraid to disappoint her.

my teachers,especially Puan Nor Rizan,Puan Siti Rahmah,Miss Intan,Puan Lim,Mr Darwis,Mr Ben,Mr Zeelen,Puan Tang,Cikgu JD and the rest of my teachers,i won't let all of you down.you won't regret having me as your student,i'll make all of you proud someday.i'll be a straight A student rockstar.just wait and see :)

btw Marco,can you please smile and let me know you're not mad at me? :( you have no idea how much i miss you.

El Mariachi on 10/10/10

"El Mariachi: All I wanted was to be a mariachi, like my ancestors. But the city I thought would bring me luck brought only a curse. I lost my guitar, my hand, and her. With this injury, I may never play the guitar again. Without her, I have no love. But with the dog and the weapons, I'm prepared for the future."

-El Mariachi (1992)

10/10/10,nice date huh?some of you may be a little disappointed that you've missed the most epic wish ever,to be done at exactly 10:10:10 a.m today.to me,i don't really think i've missed out on anything,well except the awesome Nike Run Gig in KLCC where almost all of my favourite local acts performed: Estranged,Pop Shuvit,Bunkface,One Buck Short and many more.i also missed out on my school's grand anniversary (SMK Seksyen 10 Kota Damansara is 10 years old today on 10/10/10..talk about significance,or rather..obsession).not that i mind really,my Chemistry class with mr Zeelen was of higher priority anyway,he aims to produce our results and so that is what we will assist him in.

about El Mariachi,i got bored so i decided to browse around Simon Croft's guitar handbook,i discovered a few chords,when played in a suitable sequence,could actually make up a great Spanish/Mexican traditional number,in other words,Mariachi-styled music.maybe i should try making Spanish-Mexican music?there's not much El Mariachi band here in Malaysia,so there won't be much competition?i know it's hard,with all the unfamiliar techniques,the fast riffs,my attempt to switch my electric guitar into a Spanish guitar,will definitely take up a lot of work but what the hay,there's no harm in trying right?so,about El Mariachi,i just found out that it's actually a movie about this man who moves to a new city,in his attempt to find luck in becoming an El Mariachi, but he was mistaken as a terrorist who carries weapons in his guitar bag.his fate took a major turn and before he knew it,he was forced to make a run for his life,losing most of his good luck along the way.as the quote says,he only wanted to be an El Mariachi just like his forefathers,but he ended up losing everything he had.in return,however,he was more prepare for the future upfront.okay,i read this on IMDB,haven't really watched the movie.shall try to find it on youtube of go4flicks,they should have it,IN ENGLISH! wait..moving to a new town,a twist of fate.. doesn't that ring a bell? i MOVED into KD,i had a TWIST OF FATE?do the math.

oh and did i mention how in love i am with all things Spanish/Mexican? i'm guessing all of you have noticed that already by now,judging by my fascination for Antonio Banderas and Enrique Iglesias.too bad both of them are too Americanized already,if they were still pure Spanish lads,i would've been more in love with them.Italians are fine too,take for instance Simone Chotan Quagliata.he's got a charming voice and of course,dreamy songwriting skills.

i guess that's enough daydreaming for today.not to forget,congratulations to the Malaysian Cosmonaut Dr Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor al-Masri for his wedding!

The Fishing Line Story

LOL fishing line.this is the last straw -_- i'm getting me some new heavier gauge guitar strings and a proper tuner no matter what it takes! :p

"David Marshall: John Lennon is rolling over in his grave to hide the giant boner you just gave him!"

-The Rocker (2008)

Happy 70th birthday John Lennon! you may not be physically here with us any more but i just want you to know that a legend like you will only come around once in a blue moon,for that,you're immortal ..through your music :)

did i mention that despite my never ending jealousy,i still find Emma Stone and Teddy Geiger a fantastic couple?

once again,i'm addicted to Teddy Geiger's "Bitter",especially the line that goes "is it the better man that always walks away?watch me walk away.." .so moving,i mean it!

yesterday i had this little skype jamming session with Anwar,partly influenced by this 2008 movie starring Teddy Geiger entitled 'The Rocker'.the band members were grounded and were forced to practice via webcam whereby their conversation interface had been synchronized so that there won't be any screen or audio delays.freaking awesome aite?if only it's possible to do that with Anwar,would've been better.we decided on our performance plans post-SPM,the songs we were going to perform and such.maybe it'll be a good idea to cover one of Teddy Geiger's songs?but then again,it's all after SPM.for now,all the post-SPM plans are just mere visions.

visualization of the last day of SPM courtesy of Recess School's Out.

in the most awkward way,as much as i love all the plans i've made post-SPM,i don't think i'm ready to graduate from high school yet,i feel as if..my high school life is just beginning,..when i was 16,i always wanted time to fly as fast as it could,but now that i've finally discovered the true meaning of being a high schooler,i don't think i want such life to end just yet.this year had been one of the best years of my life to say the very least.just as a recap,i've learnt and experienced a whole lot:

1.section-hopping by foot

2.running to catch a bus to curve

3.visiting McD as our compulsory final stop

4.discovering what should be the meaning of love :)

5.learning that not all guys are jerks

6.there's more to life than just academics and music

7.not all friends can be trusted

8.even extroverts have a soft spot

9.there's always more than meets the eye

10,life just goes on

11.basketball is a universal game

speaking of basketball...

Text Message Timeline:

-2.30pm (Me to Marco)

hey,free today?join me for basketball at school 5.30-6.30pm.see ya there :)

[no reply for hours]

-4.30pm (Nizar to me)

i think it's gonna rain,why don't we just call off the game?

and uhm..don't forget to inform him we're cancelling this!

(Me to Nizar)

Yeah i agree,my mom wouldn't want me to catch a fever during such critical time.

no worries,i won't.

[forgets to inform Marco]

-8.15pm [Marco to me]

hey i'm so so sorry! i really wanted to go but i somehow fell asleep!

will you ever have the heart to forgive me?please :(

-8.30pm [Me to Marco]

it's ok! sorry i forgot to inform you that we decided to cancel it since it rained.

[Marco to me]

now that's a major relief :)

[Me to Marco]

don't worry too much,you did nothing wrong,it's my fault :)

[Marco to me]

sorry for disturbing you :)

how can i not love this guy?

"Dan aku memang penakut
Mengakui cinta kepadamu
Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan
Bila bersamamu
Kau bukan milikku
Dan engkau pun tahu
Kau bukan milikku"

-Penakut by Yuna ^^

-

L.O.V.E

i want this i want this i want this!

but i'll have to wait till i'm 23 :O not that i mind,it'll be worth the wait ;)

"Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy

Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice"

-Wouldn't It Be Nice by Beach Boys :)))

is it really true that we seem like we're already an item?you can pretty much say so,through the way that we're always possessive of each other,not being able to go through our days without seeing each other,always wanting each other to be happy at all causes,always stalking on each other just to see how we feel on a particular day.doesn't it seem a little strange that we're still not together?this isn't what i think but it's what my friends have been wondering of.

"are you guys an item yet?" "when are you gonna make it official?" or funnier still,"your husband [insert statement]" .haha.seriously,i don't even know what he feels,all i know is how i feel.i do admit that sometimes he's not really my type,with all those advice of his,that nerdiness of his,but somehow all those flaws which i have been dreaded so much all these years had made him a perfect man in my eyes.bizarre?you can say that again.these feelings are suicidal and sometimes i hope that they would just go away.he might just think of me as a bestfriend,it's possible since i recall having tonnes of possessive best friends.yet,i don't think it's fair that we should still remain friends,as much as how fun it has been spending time with him alone.if only i could just say it straight to his face about how i truly feel,it could make a major difference,or won't it?i'm afraid to lose him.sometimes i wish he could just understand without the need of my honesty,and if he doesn't feel the same way,he could just admit it so that the both of us can just go on with our lives.

on a more stressful note,chemistry test sucked,i doubt that i'll ace this time.suicidal..what more can i say?my only hope to excel is the truth that when the graph of the test papers is high,the range of grades will be high too,which means there will be a large tendency to get straight A's.i need that scholarship from PTPTN and some sponsorship from ASTRO to enroll in Lim Kok Wing's University to study software engineering.

well,to be perfectly honest,you can't really get what you want all the time.software engineering is actually my third choice.my largest passion is music followed by audio engineering.unfortunately,Malaysian parents have a really narrow perception about careers relating to art (my relatives to be precise,no offence).if they ever find out that i'm taking science stream at school and then eventually take up music as a course,they'd be furious and they'll start to throw a lot of criticism.the reality of being a Malaysian,not that i'm not proud to be one.it sinks my heart to know that the beauty of music is being underestimated by such mentality.being a youth,i have no choice but to go with the flow.software engineering will be my kickstart of a stable career,and i hope no one will stop me from being a part-time musician since all my musical budget will come from my own salary.wish me luck guys! exhaustion is none of my concern,it's the passion that counts and i don't even care if i don't make it to the level of fame and fortune because that's not what music is all about.it's all for love,L.O.V.E :)

*ohh god,music is actually an optional subject in SPM! and on top of that,it doesn't clash with ANY of my science subjects! should've dropped EST and take music instead.damn..