Of Jounin Exam,the Clingy Story and The New Band(s)

heyya peeps,i haven't been updating this blog in awhile now,simply because a lot has been going on in my life,so much so that i barely have any time to breathe at all.i have a lot in mind in proportion to what's already in hand.i can't seem to keep my mind focused on one thing at a time,being a multitask freak since i was in primary school.let's start from the smallest up to the biggest agendas shall we. first of all,thanks to the infamous Hazem aka Pilot,i managed to claim tokens to finally afford recruitment of two NPCs to complete the final Jounin exam,the battle with Yamata no Orochi.battling the weak dragon alone wasn't much of a fuss,but the worst part is of course,surviving the battle when the two level 60 Jounins suddenly interfered.i always failed during the last minute but thanks to the powerful NPCs,i've succeeded! Miko is now an official Jounin XD

the other agenda is of course,i attempted to give Mr Clingy a little piece of my mind.sure,it's sweet to have someone ever so concerned about you and whatnot,but there are a few major issues that i have to point out,just for the sake of getting them out of my chest.do you know how dreadfully he reacted?let's just say he made me have a one-second confusion regarding our genders,who's supposed to be the girl here?yes people,i'm heartless,but i'm also honest.if i bottle this up,i'm just gonna worsen things up,but one thing remains a mystery,why do i feel guilty?was i too hard on him?it was a major blow i made then,i would've encountered the water works too if i were in his shoes,yet,it has to end,seriously.sometimes i wonder,are we working out at all?are you even trying?i don't know,i just don't anymore.couldn't be bothered.how could he even think of me cheating?come on,i need some space,of course i'm annoyed if someone is too clingy.i'm a human being,i get tired of something really easily,even music itself.there comes a day or two when i would just sit aroun playing games instead of practicing guitar,that's just how i work.your paranoid mind just won't cut it.have i ever messed with your social life?i doubt it.i'm not the posessive type,i give my other half freedom of being friends with anyone whom he desires.you've been so negative about this whole relationship,i'm not surprised if it doesn't last.i can be paranoid too.i can never live with someone who doesn't think of the brightside at all.i have a dark aura of sarcasm and evilness ,more than enough,i need someone to balance it up.why are you complicating things?

on a happier note,i finally got to jam with my band,Scarlet Got A Band :D too bad our permanent bassist,Naufal,has to work today,BOOOO..lucky thing CJ was awesome enough to lend us his bassist,Iqeat.so Naim's our drummer,CJ's our guitarist,Nabeel's our keyboardist and i'm the vocalist + guitarist.at first,we jammed a few familiar songs,followed by a couple of songs that only a few members know.then an idea struck me in the head,why don't we jam our own original?out of the blue,i thought of '7 Days'.it was half-ready back in my Midway Scarlet days,in spite of some of us being superstitious about doing an old band's stuffs, we arranged the song together anyway.CJ and I would actually make a great songwriting team,i write face-melting melodies and lyrics while he makes skull-crushing musical arrangements,not to mention him coincidentally being an audio engineer.this means we could cut on recording and mastering costs :D Nabeel was clueless,but he's cool too.with more practice,he'll turn out to be an awesome keyboardist and songwriter.Naim,on the other hand,was surprisingly amazing! sure,he seldom practices,but he totally got the beats right just now.Iqeat,well..personally,i think he rocks.i actually feel intimidated inviting the senior band members to join our session,but all in all it was worth all the trouble.at least we have someone worthy of pointing out and rectifying our mistakes and weaknesses.wonder if i should recruit Iqeat? hmmm...

till then,watch out Malaysian music industry,Scarlet Got A Band is coming atcha!

Professionalism vs Personal Life

"When I Come Around - Green Day"

I heard you crying loud,
all the way across town
You've been searching for that someone,
and it's me out on the prowl
As you sit around feeling sorry for yourself
Well, don't get lonely now
And dry your whining eyes
I'm just roaming for the moment
Sleazin' my back yard so don't get so uptight
you been thinking about ditching me

No time to search the world around
Cause you know where I'll be found
When I come around

I heard it all before
So don't knock down my door
I'm a loser and a user so I don't need no accuser
to try and slag me down because I know you're right
So go do what you like
Make sure you do it wise
You may find out that your self-doubt means nothing
was ever there

You can't go forcing something if it's just
not right

somehow,my situation with my honeybunch yesterday evening kind of resemble this song in a way.as a matter of fact,it resembles our whole relationship right from the very start to this very day.however,this song is more to his side of the story rather than mine.of course,i've been in a bunch of relationships and one-sided crushes before,and believe you me,i did not intend to make him a rebound,seriously.he came out of the blue,when i kept denying that we felt nothing for each other during our first few months of friendship.'it' started to come along 6 months later.i tried shoving him away thousands of times but just like a stubborn magnet,he keeps coming back into my life in one way or another.i guess it's fate people,that's why you call it falling in love.it happens by accident,when you least expect it.who would've known what should actually be nothing more than a fellow club member friendship could go this far within months?it's a miracle really.i don't usually give guys such an opportunity to begin with.take note,i'm a hard nut to crack and you're gonna have to be very amazing to be able to steal my heart and drive me crazy at the same time.

nevertheless,my boyfriend isn't the only thing i'm in love with.have i mentioned the name Afi before in this blog?wait don't answer,i'm damn sure i have,in fact i'm so sure that i'm daring enough to bet you all the money in my bank accounts if you can't find Afi's name in my blog.so i'm glad the betting thing is just a metaphore.before you get too excited,Afi is NOT a scandal.he's my guitar :) i've had him since i was 15,and ever since that my musical life took a big step forward.yes,you've guessed it,i'm in love with my music.i write punk rock/pop punk music.for the timing,i plan to write songs and search for a vocalist.having a conversation with my sweetpie yesterday evening during dinner gave him the idea of me recruiting him into my musical team.the question is,when such situation surfaces,it's a tough choice between the love of my life and my life-long dream.what would it be?sure,some may say it's easier to work with someone we love who loves us back rather than working with a friend or some random but talented stranger,however another question comes up,what if the hearty feelings interfere with the artistic side altogether?wouldn't that be a bummer?professionalism would be much simpler without any emotions getting involved.don't get me started on Mizz Nina and Noh Hujan,they may be a couple but they commit to their passion.as for me,i have pledged to myself that my bandmates should not be someone i have feelings for,it will NOT work out especially if the band faces crisis.wouldn't that take our personal relationship downhill?some people can never set apart the issues relating to the heart and professions and i admit that i am among them.whether he likes it or not,i'm going to have to say no,so as to benefit the both of us in the long run.it's tough,but i have no other options.i want both to work out,so sacrifices are bound to be made.

by the way,any musicians out there whom are willing to cooperate with me in my online band project?my offer stands for drummers,vocalists and bassists.lead guitarists,if any are interested,are welcomed to join in too.let's make some music people :)

10 Changes In 2010

oh yes it's the new year again and as we all know,the ultimate cliche' is to make a new year,or several,new year resolutions which we will eventually break either unintentionally or rather,blindly.it's getting old,really,and i'm sick of all of it.for instance,i pledged to not curse,yet,i curse after every bad luck i get.what's up with my resolutions?they're all gone,blown away by the wind,or perhaps washed off by the recent tsunami and volcanic lava.i am in no way trying to be offensive,but i am proving my point that new year resolutions are total poppy cocks.seriously,why do you have to wait for the first day of a new year to plan your aspirations and whatnot am i right?in the words of my English friend,Chantelle,

well instead of making new year resolutions,i've decided to recap the top 10 changes in my life in significant to the year 2010.here goes:

1.moving from a house in Muar to a condo in Seksyen 10 Kota Damansara

2.moving from Convent Muar to SMK Seksyen 10 Kota Damansara

3.making new friends?

4.new musical style of songwriting.

5.new members in Afi's brotherhood circle.

6.life without Midway Scarlet.

7. section-hopping by bus!

8.the Curve & McD as my new cliche' hangout place.

9.my new obsessions with Scrubs & Green Day

10.found love :)

and of course,something i've never done before in my whole life,dancing on the streets to the tune of Mika's "Blame It On The Girls" with Ejay & Desiree!

great year,great memories! 2011,bring it on!