May Angels Lead You In

There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.
What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live.
May angels lead you in.

-Hear You Me by Jimmy Eat World

i miss blogging in English,sorry people,i just can't monologue in Malay although it's my mother tongue,it's just not as expressive.no,i'm not denying my heritage,it's just that,i talk too much,sometimes i need an escapade from my external personality.i seldom emote in front of people,i'll usually isolate myself and just..cry.hiding it from everyone seems so much better than trying to find someone who truly understands.i'm not trying to seek for sympathy,as a matter of fact that's the last thing i need.

today,is one of the worst days of my life,not because of bad luck,i hardly experience any this year,but because of my unstable emotion.i was too happy in the morning,maybe i needed to balance it up with a little sorrow here and there.reading about Achik Spin's 1st ramadhan without her husband really broke my heart,let alone mom's supernatural yet touching story that happened this morning.as Muslims,we believe that the deceased spirits will roam the earth,whereby all the Heaven doors have been opened.they will pay a visit to their families,it's a must and today,mom told me she experienced something really really beyond logical minds.the wind was still,but she sensed some kind of tantalizing fragrant whilst she was lying down to rest after sending me to school.it was tad impossible that it came from elsewhere since no one was around,and the fragrant was focused in one spot,ironically nearby the place where dad used to sit all the time.our conclusion,it was dad.how lucky of mom to have sensed his presence,i used to feel him being around too but it was when he newly passed away.i know he's here somewhere,and i wouldn't wanna let him down.

i'm glad he's happy.the pleasant smell tells it all.it's believed that if a spirit has it,means that the afterlife is also a promising one.

"Hey daddy,how have you been?Has heaven been treating you well?"