Friday, April 2, 2010

And The Story Goes.. - Part 4

another week,another episode and it never gets old.reality and drama are so far apart.drama is planned and written beforehand,whereas reality is as spontaneous as can be.this whole week was so full of stories and moments to be shared.

where is he? i looked all over for him but to no avail.what a bad day,i thought to myself.but WAIT! isn't that him?he came,despite the presence of the dreaded invigilators,he did his was charming.he has such leadership.

this was when the funny part came along.we had gym class before recess so all of us decided to grab a bite before we changed into our normal school about awwwwwwwwwwwkkkward.i went out of the class and waited for Nizar to come out.just then,my eyes were staring into the next class where they too were preparing to go out for recess.unpredictably,alex appeared from the backdoor of his class.we had a brief eye-to-eye moment before he strangely walked back into his class using the FRONTDOOR,which was actually nearer to me.finally,Nizar came out and we were ready to go for recess.once again,Alex was acting really weird.he leaned against the wall near the stairs and just stared at nizar and me.i knew he wanted to say hi to Nizar,which was actually supposed to be normal,as far as i know,but the thing is,he didn't.he looked speechless.but i do admit he had this beautiful shimmer in his eyes.

Ling was once again excited to prove to me that she knew which one alex was.we turned behind and there he was,coincidently the both of us were wearing blue.the beauty vanished when ben appeared and suddenly wanted to sit in front,nearer to was hell.luckily mr Zeelen decided to brainwash us instead of teach,otherwise i might have attention span issues.

it was a horror.i saw ben harassing a girl whom he sat beside of.i wanted to make my escape but once again,the elevator was against me.i wanted to run down the stairs but it was too dark.i prayed and prayed hard that ben wouldn't do anything to me in the elevator,and THANK GOD HE DIDN'T.however,his gang was a bit psychotic.they gradually followed everywhere i went.scary in a way but since alex was there,what the heck..haha

we were having some girl talk,enjoying our fish satay as alex appeared out of first he was really far away from us,so i managed to catch a glimpse or two of him and my friends understood me.just then,as we were talking,Nizar randomly looked behind me and laughed.i turned to where she was looking at,only to find that alex was behind me all along,doing funny faces to tease Nizar.i admit,i was a bit jealous, (still am).he then talked to two girls from his class.just then,how i wished i was one of those two girls.pathetic but true.i thought he was going to walk away but clearly he didn't.instead of going to his friends,he leaned against the wall near to my gang.even before the tutorial (which he obviously skipped with carlos)he acted weird when he saw assumptions just yet,i'm just saying..

i didn't see him the whole day,except for several encounters,nothing extraordinary thus far.since my mom wasn't home,we decided to have a little secret feast of our own.the girls came with me home and cooked maggi! ily did a great job,the rest of the girls did good setting the table up.we had so much fun till my mom suddenly came home,LOL~ we didn't get into toruble fortunately.we cleaned up a little and went back to school for maths was funny how everyone was so competitive over a small maths task.

it kept on raining and raining.we got utterly frustrated by the not so favourable weather.all of us expected to play basketball but instead we were made to listen to talks regarding sucks,big time! however,we managed to penetrate the teachers by going out through the backdoor,and shooting some hoops in the rain.when the heavy rain subsided,we were joined by the boys.this was when Nizar told me to return to my rightful state of mind and observe Carlos.he's perfect in every single way,gorgeous smile,slight dimples,athletic body cutout,a basketball player and he's a pretty nice guy too.he was flexible enough to do flips and tricks to enhance his basketball shooting skills,it was really artistic in a way.nevertheless,Carlos is perfect but he's not for me.Lex owns my heart and there's nothing we can do about it.emotions can't be forced,especially love.that's why you call it 'falling' in love and no one forces themselves to fall.i don't know what went through my mind,Carlos just isn't the right one.

how humiliating.we didn't have much time to prepare for the EST presentation,and no,i refuse to elaborate was the last straw for me.i went through a sudden emotional breakdown.i rushed into the toilet when no one was looking as my tears were pouring down.i have so many concrete reasons to react as such that i didn't even realise how my emotions took control of my actions.i skipped class and wandered around.i had to create an excuse to let myself off the hook and it worked.i felt guilty for lying though,and a bit hungry for skipping breakfast.i was more depressed than i am hungry.before heading home,i met up with my very own emotional antidote,Alexander Luthor,who just had to stand there and work his a blink of an eye,my depression vanished and what's left was the smile on my face as i walked home.

to be continued...if there is anymore continuation that is.

Al Fatihah to Din Beramboi

بِسْمِ ٱللَّهِ ٱلرَّحْمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيم

ٱلْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ
ٱلْعَـٰلَمِينَ * ٱلرَّحْمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ * مَـٰلِكِ يَوْمِ ٱلدِّينِ
إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وَ إِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ * ٱهْدِنَا ٱلصِّرَ ٰط
ٱلْمُسْتَقِيمَ * صِرَ ٰطَ ٱلَّذِينَ أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَيْهِمْ غَيْرِ
ٱلْمَغْضُوبِ عَلَيْهِمْ وَلاَ ٱلضَّاۤلِّينَ

al fatihah to favourite stand-up act and morning crew from era.such a big loss,such big talent.may Allah bless his soul.