Monday, August 30, 2010

When Cookies Are More Trustworthy

"All of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here"
You and Me by Lifehouse

it seems to me that i have been constructing an empire here in KD,who would've thought that i could actually make a large number of friends in such a nick of time?even i didn't expect that my friendship circle would germinate this rapidly and most importantly,TREMENDOUSLY! i know,i should stop reading these fortune cookies before they get to my head but! always bear in mind that it is not the luck it carries is what matters,instead it's the word of wisdom they convey.i always find them useful enough to keep me on my feet the entire time to endure any kinds of hardship that i may have to face soon.amazing how fortune cookie talk can be of a large influence in my life.most of it is true a few weeks after i receive them,like this one for instance:

this one could be applied for my trials,it means when you have faith,you are's not your muscles that count,it's your willpower and your self-confidence.

and today,i don't know what have gone through my head,i woke up at 1pm after this very awkward dream relating to KFC (yes,FML,exactly) only to find that i woke up on the wrong side of the bed.waking up to a discouraging conversation with my mom,especially on laid-back sunday noon isn't really what i have in mind.that minor argument about how mom refused to let me make my own decisions,my negative thoughts about losing all my hope and dreams and worst still,my thoughts of missing you,endlessly thinking about you is really messing up my whole system.i selfishly poked all my friends on FB out of loneliness (due to your absence) and these two responded.i'm touched :') thanks for understanding me guys!

and then comes this quote from a website i found:

description of love is from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin:
"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine

well i guess NO ONE deserves to be owned but mark this,no matter what,i'll always be there for you if you need me,regardless of whether or not this love story is one-sided.i hope one day,you'll come to this are not mine and likewise,but i know how much we need each other.look deep within your heart and one day you shall see.