Saturday, February 25, 2012

Lavigne's Black Star Week

In conjunction with Avril Lavigne's Black Star Tour which ended yesterday, having Malaysia as her last performance venue for the tour, I decided to blog about the whole week in one go. I'll try to tell each story as brief but complete as I could,with only the highlighted events included.

Day 1 - Sunday : Lunch with the Elite Team

So apparently Mahirah and Nadzmi secretly planned a lunch date with all the members of the Elite team prior to the departure of  a few of us to other unis, it was initially meant to celebrate the anniversary of the Elites and as a farewell for them. Well, things don't always go as we plan ; something came up and Mahirah herself couldn't make it so the organizing duties have been passed to the co-host of the event, Nadzmi. in spite of the fact that it was meant for the Elites, we brought in Dzaim's friend to join us under the concept of 'the more the merrier'. Jessie and I took the time we had while waiting for our food to arrive to prepare charades and plan out Music Club's first ever meeting. We talked for a bit while pictures were captured.Then everyone dispersed, where Josh had bowling practice, Benson had another appointment to attend to, while Dzaim's gang headed to One Utama to settle their preparations for their France trip,which left Faiz,Nadzmi and me alone. So the three of us walked to MBO to watch Journey 2. Not a bad movie at all to be honest and all three of us had a great time. pics credits to Nadzmi photography.

Day 2 - Monday : 1st Music Club Meeting in 2012

Not sure if anyone is aware of how I've been actively spamming the Music Club page lately ; the point? I'm a junior committee of the club now,and I were to handle meetings and other Music Club activities. To be perfectly honest, it was awkward at first, especially with the fact that only the junior committee were there while Benson only arrived later on.There was nothing scarier than trying to make a good impression and handling a crowd of new faces. This was also the first time we had a meeting in the Experimental Theatre aka The Box. I started to nervously approach the new members and got to know a few of them (whose names I could've sworn I had troubles remembering, lol). It went pretty well since they're quite warm , phew. Then Josh got to their attention when we did an introductory speech. They were then divided into 3 groups and we played charades. These groups were to guess the names of artists written on pieces of paper held by their leaders. They were to sing out songs by the artists ; alright I confess most of the committee did help the junior out. So as a result, all three groups were then required to each prepare a love song performance while the Elites, too, had to prepare ourselves to showcase and demonstrate who we are to them. The loser needed to perform first. Neo,Josh, Benson, Faiz and me performed Breakeven on behalf of the Elites. (photos credits to Nadzmi Photography)

Day 4 - Wednesday (Pavilion with the Musketeers)

It's been awhile since us trio : Mahirah, Faiz and me, had gone for a proper lunch date and outing,so this time, instead of having lunches in our uni, we decided to twist our plans a little bit. Faiz fetched me from my house and we headed for M's in Mont Kiara. I finally met her mom and got to somewhat chat with her for a little bit. We then headed for Pavilion. Traffic was quite smooth (my mom called be on my way there, making sure I come home early because I had a last minute notice to settle my scholarship application that night), and the first thing on our minds was to grab lunch. After several contemplation (and arguments lol) we finally settled down in Nando's. To save up, we ordered the Nando's 4-pax platter and a dessert. It was pretty amusing how the place doesn't seem to have enough staff when we were there, there seemed to only be one waitre on duty o.O peculiar, I know. After we finished our meals, they told me they were taking me to a 'surprise place'. As much as I love surprises, I hate curiosity! can't believe they would put me in that situation for the whole night! lol. Finally, mystery's solved. Turned out they were taking me to this newly opened haven for makeup addicts : Sephora, which was situated just opposite the main Pavilion building. Of course, what's the purpose of stepping into a makeup store and NOT dolling up yourself right? Faiz was on makeup duties, and I must say he might as well just work there xD judging by the standard of his skillful hands.Then we were up for a little facial cleansing talk by one of the salesgirls (dubbed E-een), as convincing as it sounded, I'd stick to my old face washing routine,too lazy to bother xD our next stop was Sticky, a candy place that Mahirah favors a lot. We were lucky to have been able to witness the candy being made by hand. Then we did a little more strolling before we finally decided to grab a Chatime (*disclaimer : it's a very popular chillout place in Malaysia that mainly sells bubble tea and other Taiwanese style drinks in plastic cups) and then took pictures with the touring bear statues to wrap up the whole outing. (photos credits to Mahirah Photography).

Day 6 - Friday (Jam session with Band 93)

It was the 17th already and I've never been this glad to have made up an alibi to cancel our 26th February gig ! Although it's almost two weeks away, I doubt the boys can cope such tight schedule,especially considering the fact how we're all part time musicians and are not professionals. I'm not really their leader, thank God, but we share the tasks among one another since none of us are willing to appoint ourselves one. So we made it a habit to practice way earlier beforehand to avoid any last minute jobs. We all anticipated Josh's arrival to see what he brought.. it wasn't a bass as we've expected, but he brought enough equipment to open up his own mini studio in SLC! well it wasn't a complete set,but surely it's good enough for recording. His midi controller (the red keyboard,for those of you who are wondering), his mixing headphones, laptop,cables,condenser mic, mixer. It was a hassle but he managed to carry them all by himself ; although he had to first go home and take it back to uni. The jam session went well for 2 hours solid before we resumed a random jam session. Jason joined us in between and they managed to record a song with him. It was rather productive and I managed to wrap up Here Without You and part of Breakeven with Neo. We then dispersed, where we awkwardly ended up meeting each other again outside SLC. Neo,Josh,Jason and I sat on the floor and started talking. Just as Josh was gonna leave and I wanted to head out to dinner with Jason, we met Neo who was supposedly gone for hours ago. Talk about magnet eh?  Another funny incident is when we were all in the middle of a convo when we learnt that Josh's car broke down and we had to go all the way to his parking spot to jump start the engine for him. Heck of a day I might say!

Day 7 - Black Star Tour final gig (Avril Lavigne live in Stadium Merdeka)

I've been waiting for this my whole life! Avril Lavigne, as I mentioned before, is one of my biggest idols and she's definitely in my bucketlist of artists I'd like to watch live before I die, lol. I got her Rock Zone ticket thanks to Rach! For some strange reason, I wasn't quite excited about it the night before,maybe because of the hectic day I've had in uni. I didn't bother to get myself ready until it was 3pm. Traffic was smooth along MRR2 but started to clog up when we reached KL, I managed to reach on time : 6pm. I was supposed to meet up with El Amino but unfortunately the queue was insanely long so I decided to just wander around alone to look for a perfect spot to sit and wait. I was lucky I stumbled upon such lovely girls : Alyssa & the gang of young teenagers. I initially asked them about the posters they got, and somehow the conversation evolved and voila! new friends :D And the advantage was that I managed to get to the front of the queue with the girls.Long story short, security was an asshole and they took my camera away, then again it wasn't enough to steal the excitement. The show started of with some shitty dance music (sorry, for some reason I hate music remixes done by this DJ Natalie, it was disturbingly annoying). I was so glad it ended and soon, Avril showed up on stage strutting the tunes of Black Star and then pumping up with WTH. The 3rd song was SK8ER BOI, one of my faves since I was a child! The following are the songs she sang + my reviews :

Full Track/Song list of Avril Lavigne The Black Star Tour LIVE in Malaysia
1. Blackstar 

It was only an instrumental, but the excitement started to spark because we know we're finally seeing her on stage. The 'star' light sticks waved by the audience gave a really interesting effect on the entire atmosphere throughout the song.

2. WTH

To be honest, I'm not really a big fan of this song but I gotta admit, Avril pulled off the high notes better singing live rather than recorded! 

3. SK8ER Boi

I hate the fact that everyone sang along and I can't hear shit that Avril sang,lol. It was fun though because the whole crowd felt the energy she carried and started to jump with her.

4. He Wasn’t

5. I always get what I want

6. Alice
This song was so much better live than in the album. I fell in love with it instantly when the epicness flew in the air as the music started to entice us.

7. When you’re gone
"I always needed time on my own" - by singing this line, Avril had once again gotten the whole stadium to sing along. As usual,her vocals were out of this world !

8. Wish you were here
9. Unwanted/ Musical Piece
10. Girlfriend

11. Airplanes/ My happy ending
12. Don’t tell me

I texted Dex, because it was pretty much 'our song', we did a cover of it before and we both happen to be Avril junkies.
13. Smile
14. I’m with you

Encore :
15. I love you

I saw a couple going in the empty space between TT Zone and Rock Zone, the BF proposed to the GF, of course she said yes,but eventually fainted probably due to dehydration.
16. Complicated

Somewhere in between, Avril and her band disappeared from the stage, the whole venue darkened and the crowd shouted for an encore. The members reappeared, switching roles : Avril on guitars, Jim McGorman (yummy... hehehe) on lead vocals etc, to cover Foster The People's "Pumped Up Kicks".

All in all,it was a great show in spite of all the drama and the mildness in the atmosphere due to Avril's lack of audience interaction. All was well and I enjoyed every bit of the concert :)

p/s: did I mention fate brought me to meet Nureen Izazi? she's an amazing budding young guitarist,you should check her out,seriously. she has high potential!

Sunday, February 12, 2012

The Ultimate Troll - it's legend..wait for it.. DARY!

To commemorate my 400th post,I give u.. the story of my ultimate troll alongside my trollmaster, Rascal ! It's been almost two weeks since I last met my classmates (no,online methods do NOT count) so as much as I enjoy the freedom after finally finishing my foundation, I do miss messing around with the boys. We do keep in touch,but nothing compares to trolling each other in class. So two days ago, Rascal posted something that gave us all a cardiac arrest : list of the names of people who needed to resit math paper! We then learnt that he was just trolling,but since not many people saw the post, we decided to widen the target range. Me and Rascal, side-by-side, planned the ultimate troll. We added more names of people into the list and removed the previous post, with the previous commentators being informed that they should pretend they just saw the post. Considering the fact that they trust me with their lives and assume my utter innocence, I was assigned to post this up on the class page, indeed, many were trolled xD  because they did not read the message right till the end. :

more of the reactions i sparked by the trolling I did with my accomplice,the mastermind, king of trolls : Rascal Liow. Some laughed,some cursed us, some remained blur while others just wanted to murder us,totally worth it,lol.

I got a phone call from Yudish, and this 'threatening PM' from Seelan. LOL. seriously dude, I think I misplaced my gut laughing at our troll victims xD

And the rest of it was history. My first ever successful troll with Rascal, dated Feb 9th 2012. I shall name it the 090212 epic troll :D

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Dude,you need a hug.. and some pizza.

remember the spunky kid from Home Alone? this is what's became of him :( his parents misused his fortune,his girlfriend left him (scumbag Mila Kunis! grrr) he went into drug addiction and went to rehab. damnn... i just wanna give him a hug,make him some hot coco and order some hot pizza with extra cheese for him. can't bear to see him this scruffy and all messed up, it breaks my heart.

Too Girlish? I AM A GIRL!

It really puzzles me how I can transform from an extremely feminine little girl who wanted to be a princess, into a rocker chic like I am now. I used to be super obsessed with silk dresses, eating in luxurious restaurants or diners and somewhat in love with Barbie dolls ; right now, I'm the total opposite of my 5-year-old self. I noticed this strange evolution since I was about 7 or 8, when my brothers exposed me to awesome rock bands like The Offsprings, Metallica, Guns & Roses, Butterfingers, Linkin Park etc. To everyone's surprise, this spoiled little brat actually enjoyed those and gradually transformed into an entirely different person both appearance and personality wise.I started to hate everything with skirts, and started wearing shorts and jeans. My musical taste changed from mellow Disney songs and ballads to rock and punk. I even have a typical boy's mindset about life ! Some say it's because my age gap with my brothers is smaller than my age gap with my sister, so they're pretty much my childhood playmate and have influenced me a lot in many different angles of life. Wanna know the ironic part? Not only do I act like a boy,I talk like one too! And this has made my mom worried,but not for long, because she was so relieved to learn that I still have traits that make me a girl apart from my natural physique; but seriously, I can assure you, in spite of my new year resolution to be more girlish, I still plan to keep some of my boyish traits that make me who I am today. Let's make a quick review on my boyish side:

  1. My passion for guitars.  Thank you Captain Obvious! Acoustic guitars are quite common among girls, you can see artists like Taylor Swift or Yuna playing them on stage, but my not-so-common interest is on electric guitars. Honestly, tell me how many girls do you know who are so into guitars that they actually bother to level up to lead guitars? only a teaspoonful, some even assumed electric guitars are built for boys! i'm glad a few female electric guitarists budded to prove otherwise.
  2. My interest in basketball. This speaks for itself. it started when i watched Space Jam with my brothers, then i got my dad to buy me a basketball and a basketball net.Simple math, typical girls play netball,i play basketball.
  3. My disliking to go shopping. There's a few exceptions though,i only shop when i have an aim,like if i find myself not having anything to wear to an occasion ; but certainly not for leisure. 
  4. My hatred of reading, especially history. I only read 9gag lol.Reading bores me in ways unimaginable, although some books are certainly excellent reads, others are just utter rubbish.
  5. My lack of sensitivity in words or sometimes action. I talk and act like a sailor,enough said.
  6. My mannerism and 'bro chemistry' with boys. I get along with boys almost too easily, not in a slutty way but I blend in the gang so well, that sometimes they forget I'm a girl. In worse cases, I've better chemistry with boys than girls.
  7. My hatred of flowers and anything with laces/ruffles. Unless you're a landscape or fashion designer, liking any of these as a guy could only mean one thing : you're gay.
  8. My hatred for things that limit my movement( clothes/long skirts/high heels) and love for action/adventure Only cross-dressing guys would love long skirts/heels, not that I have anything against them. I'd love some outfits that don't limit my mobility, because I'm really into adventurous sports and activities, have yet to try paintball,rock-climbing and laser tagging though.
  9. My desire for space and time alone. This explains why I'm still single, guys would just assume that by being clingy, all girls would feel protected,it's a different story in my case. I HATE dependent guys.
  10. My interest in computers and games. Do the math, I'm a computing student,and my classmates are mostly guys :D
  11. My overrated sense of humor. I seem to overdo my jokes sometimes,and most of the time I mean no harm and have absolutely no intention to be kinky, my words just seem to come out wrong -.-
  12. My ego and narcissism I am somewhat self-centered to a certain degree and can't accept advice in certain situations or things I feel that I'm good enough at.
  13. My failure to express myself I find it hard to admit to people if I'm mad,or depressed. I seldom show it unless it goes above the line.
  14. My suckish hospitality skills   Let's just say I'm only gonna catch up on cooking and sewing a few months before my wedding,lol. but hey, I do the dishes and laundry,and cut vegetables! close enough eh?
  15. My ignorance on details I see life as a big picture and don't quite go to details.

Now let's look at my girly side:
  1. My sentimental side. When I fall in love, I start to appreciate love songs and cute little moments I spend with the person I secretly love.
  2. My insecurity and doubt. I'm not really a person with high self-esteem,especially when it comes to appearance and intelligence. I envy girls who are far superior than I am, prettier or smarter,although I never let that negativity get the better of me.
  3. PMS I get bad-tempered when it comes to that time of the month, sorry victims,it's out of my control xD
  4. My bad sense of direction I'm not implying that all girls have it, but majority does,so I might as well generalize it. Proof? I lost my way THRICE when directing my friends to send me home or to uni FROM my house.
  5. My love for fashion & makeup All girls wanna look pretty no matter what,right? I don't quite do heavy makeup,natural works well. Just a smear of lip gloss and a tint of blusher will do the trick ; or in special occasions, I'd just touch up a tiny portion of my eyelids and that's it. and yes,I confess,I still keep up with the latest trends.
  6. My interest in chic flicks & soap operas Yes i love chic flicks like Twilight & Titanic, and I follow a lot of soap operas : Indonesians, Venezuelans, Spanish, Japanese, Malay.. you name it!
  7. My fragility I cry,just as much as other girls do when I encounter failures or when I feel that I can't take it anymore. I lose it and just,cry.
  8. My taking offence over excessive remarks You can call me bitch, but if you call me fat,you're a goner,lol.
  9. My love for all things purple/pink and adorable I'm a big fan of shades of pink,purple and almost everything with fur.
  10. My craving for comfort food I sometimes opt for desserts when I'm depressed,or just generally sweets. They spoil my diet,but make me happy.
  11. My self-conciousness I always wanna look flawless, ALWAYS
  12. My disgusted-ness towards pests I squeal at the very side of snakes,mice,roaches,lizards (just to name a few) like any other girls on this planet.
  13. My hyperventilation when exposed to images of abs. Only fit ones please.*cough TaylorLautner *cough
  14. My fangirlishness towards bands
  15. My secret desire to settle down and be a mum
And the dominant side is..... *drumrolls*

So yeah, I ended up buying the dress coz it's lovely,and most of my girl friends are proud of me xD on my way to achieve one of my new year resolutions : to be a girly girl !

Saturday, February 4, 2012

When the universe finds its balance

I've always had this crush on Neil Patrick Harris (alone, and with Cobie Smulders )
despite his sexuality. This is, by far my fave RobBarn moment - them moping over a tub of
ice cream in bed because Lily and Marshall dumped them.
I've been watching 'How I Met Your Mother' (now on season 5) - because I'm so free? and I've seen the characters hooking up with each other and a lot of other random people, but one couple caught my eyes : Barney Stinson and Robin Scherbatsky. I know they're not really a perfect couple like Marshall Eriksen and Lily Aldrin, but somehow, I see the bond between them. They don't seem to care about being lovey-dovey on the outside, but deep inside, they really love each other and just like everybody else, they too, cry when their hearts are broken. Robin sucks in relationships because she's afraid of commitments, sound familiar? Yes that's it! Yours truly is suffering the same issue! We both are eager to end our single lives, but do not want any strings attached. As paradoxical as it gets, it happens to every one of us whether or not we are aware of it.Barney is another one of the guys who's just plainly lusty, but everything changes when it comes to Robin. He gets jealous, touchy and a little bit mushy at some points. I find it sweet how they tend to change perceptions because of each other and it sucks to learn that they broke up after a few episodes :(  Lily and Marshall are sweet but they're married and they've always been loyal and committed with each other ; Barney and Robin are just getting started.

Hold up,did I just rant about a TV show I just started watching and have fallen in love with? Yes,BUT simply because I can relate to most of the scenarios. Unlike most of the unrealistic shows I've watched, this one is actually both intelligently hilarious and full of life lessons - it gives me a deep insight of love, by not expecting too much out of it. Fairy tale endings are BS and nothing ever perfectly works in life, but one shouldn't sulk with destiny, because the universe eventually finds a balance. Take for instance, I had a fucking bad day in uni but as soon as the weekend comes, I'll have fun regardless of whether or not I'm out of the house with my friends. There's always a small thing that makes a big leap on my emotions ; something to turn my frown upside down after a tough week. I can say I had a shitty fortnight before 140112 *cough*Simple Plan *cough*. People keep saying I'm lucky for meeting them, but have you ever thought how lucky you are in other aspects of life? Some people don't have to worry about money,but I HAVE TO. Some people have their love lives figured out, look at mine.. on a swaying boat that's sailing off to God knows where! I might even die alone, for goodness' sake! I really don't want it to happen but I eventually have to live it should it happen for real.I'm not that smart either,I'm studious. Music? pfft psssh... I have no absolute talent as much as I've tried or practiced. Nothing's going anywhere. I write songs that people label as plagiarism eventhough it's 100% my own work ; I'm unlucky in guitars too. My skills are not progressing and budget becomes the limiting factor for me to get further by upgrading my gears. My singing? Down the drain,bro, that's where it is. I don't have a good voice.

Some people complain too much and are not aware of how lucky they are. I may sound very whiny right now, but really.. Nobody's really thankful for anything until they lose it. Sure,my life's not all bad but stop comparing yourselves to me and wishing you were me. You WOULD NOT want to be me. Apart from a few lucky events in my life, there's really nothing much to talk about. I'm not interesting and I'm apparently not anyone's type. Meeting other people, there's always gonna be something they want me to change about myself, if for the better I'm fine but in this case, change to cater to their preferences in terms of liking and disliking. I know i'm not that competent enough to be a perfect girl, according to society norm, but I know I'm one and I can be a good one someday. I believe in myself but sometimes it does suck to be waiting for something you're not sure even gonna happen at all. If you think this is about him, yes you're assumptions are right this time. Surprisingly I reduced to tears all out of a sudden thinking of the void that grew between us. As much as it may be external entities' fault that we're growing miles apart like this, I still blame myself for telling people the first place. I should've kept my promise of not falling in love after the major break up. What ever happened to 'never again'?

I miss him, and we're only one FB message, one text, one call away but I can never do it. We haven't been casually talking if it wasn't for music, apart from it I really don't have a reason. and YES,i'm jealous of you. You get to randomly talk to him without him having second thoughts about replying you or how to act around you. You guys like the same band and you're going to the concert with him. I'm really scared your dream might come true,except the fact that the other him doesn't like me. he ignores my existence and is more excited to see you than me, while we're in the same room. It sucks and it kills me inside. THERE i've said it, I'm a jealous bitch and I deserve to be slapped for the insecurity. I'm insecure and I have little or no self-esteem whatsoever. I'm a pessimist at every angle and I might need to get a rehab from all these emotions to eventually recover.I'm depressed for a guy who apparently pays attention to every detail I say and tells me random stuff but yet doesn't mind whether I live or die. Could I get more pathetic?

i should really consider taking this advice ;)