Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Vanilla Twilight,Violet Eyes

"The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here"
-Vanilla Twilight by Owl City

tonight,according to the article on the newspaper that mom read,we're supposed to be able to witness the magnificent Jupiter beside the moon in the sky.this phenomenon can only occur in every 50 years,it's a chance of a lifetime since none of us are sure that we can ever live that long.i looked up the sky but to much disappointment,nothing was there but the violet sky,which was a bit extraordinary at this hour (0000 at the moment).not even the moon was there.nevertheless,i've never seen such eye-catching view in a while,it reminded me of this song called Vanilla Twilight by Owl City.okay,technically it's not dawn nor dusk,but the colour tone of the sky was prominent indeed (in fact,even when i'm writing this,the colour remains).it's blueish purple,with a tinge of stars,no moon,nothing.reminds me a lot friends should know,as a matter of fact i think everyone knows already.want proof?
" aisyah: good luck with ************** !
me: you know about me and him?
aisyah:doesn't everyone? "

get what i mean?i can't help but feeling an indigestible mixture of guilt,shyness and of course,everyone's favourite,deep love.i think i'm falling harder and deeper,which hurts,A LOT.hoping to get a chance to talk to you every morning when i'm alone,hoping to be left alone so i can think of you,recalling all our sweet memories all night till i fall asleep,praying to God that you'd someday come to a long-waited realization of how i feel,hoping to at least confess in my dreams and listen to your answer,imagining your whisper when in anger,hoping that you'd feel the same way someday,hoping that i could someday vanish your sense of emptiness and share all your laughter and pain - all these are just dreams,uncertainties,a spec of sand in my beach of thoughts.or perhaps not?what if it's a large coral reef yet to be discovered?maybe that's why i just couldn't get him out of my mind?too many unanswered questions,but there's nothing i could do but let time decide.

time heals,it also answers so we can say that time is one of the most powerful ruler of the world.

-i admit,sometimes when i think of you,do you think of me too?you mean the world to me,but does the world mean more to you than I could ever be?