Sunday, July 4, 2010

Because I Cry Alone

brace yourselves,this has never been admitted to anyone else but my dear readers.i am sick and tired of bottling everything's about time to spill the beans,let the cat out of the bag,whatever equivalent.i repeat,it's ABOUT TIME! i really hate waiting for people to understand me because they just won't.when i listen to people and find solutions to their problems,i do it sincerely.i never hope for anything in return,but what do i get?back-stabbed,back-talked,loads of things that i do not deserve.i'm not saying i'm a kind person,no one is.everyone is involved in some sort of corruption or vice in one way or another ,i too am not an exception.but that shouldn't be a reason for all of you to shoot me all at once,what is this an ambush? a war? no.we may be in a battlefield,we all are fighting for something,all of us are aiming for our respective you realise that all of us are actually on the same page?why would you wanna make your teammate fall?for fame and fortune?to be the center of attention? go ahead,no one is stopping you.but why must you attack those who triumph?i didn't know glory was a new kind of sin.i'm being attacked from all angles just as my life was starting to get into one piece.i trusted you,i trusted all of you as a matter of fact.jealousy broke all of us apart.i don't know why are you letting envy get between us,forming a huge barrier to separate friendship and rationality.nothing makes sense to me anymore.everything is all about sarcasm,jealousy,betrayal,lies and all things's turning into a dark,dark world and i am alone,walking the alley,not knowing what kind of danger to expect.this is not the kind of life i chose to live,in fact,this is not the kind of life that anyone deserves at all.where are the so-called friends of mine when i need them?nowhere.but where am i when THEY need ME?everywhere,i'm always there through thick or thin,despite knowing them for either a long or short period of time.i am there to listen,to comfort and to advise.what about my own problems?are they anyone who would actually listen and try to empathize them?no.all they do is pretend,pretend that they care.pretend that i mean something to them while in truth,i don't.i'm just a spec of dust,a grain of sand,a tiny droplet of dew that will eventually evaporize once the harsh sun is up in the sky.i mean nothing to them.i should just be ignored.i'm like an underused appliance,kept shut in a shelf,taken out when in need and kept shut when not being used.i deserve better,i know i do.i am a human being too,i face problems and dilemmas that most people don't know of.i refuse to tell anyone for fear that they would not care at all.i need a listener at the very least,someone who would let me cry my heart out on their shoulder and seal my wound when i bleed a little too far,i did find a few understanding friends,but as usual,sometimes they just don't care.they expect me to attend to their problems,saying that mine is too petty for them to bother in comparison to their own.what do you know about my problems exactly?are you sure you know the whole story from A-Z? i highly doubt that,my won't even give me a break,how would you know then?you're a backstabber,and that's the least i could say about you.don't you think i know what you're trying to say with all your sarcasms?come on..i've lived my life for 17 years,i'm not too stupid to figure it out.

dear readers,i feel that this should be enough.i know now that i know nothing of life.quoting paolo coelho "if you understand life,it means you have misunderstood everything".life is a complicated maze and all of us are trapped in for God knows how long.our journey is life itself .it doesn't matter how long you've gotten lost.what matters the most is how we survive it,and what comes at the end of the maze.daylight?darkness?uncertainty? choose the right way and you shall find what your soul yearns.

to whoever is trying to create my downfall in any approach possible,EAT MY DUST YOU'RE STUCK IN YESTERDAY,GO FECK YOURSELF!

Bees/Flies During WC Matches Mystery Solved!

The annoying horn that plays during FIFA World Cup Matches is called a "vuvuzela". The exact origins of the vuvuzela are disputed, but they have been seen in South African football matches since at least the 1990s. It's become part of the South African football experience. The instrument is supposed to resemble the sound of an elephant, but thousands of them in a stadium make a sound reminiscent of a swarm of bees. The origin of the name itself, "vuvuzela", is also uncertain. It might mean "making noise" or possibly a variation on the word "shower" because it looks like a shower head. Listening to vuvuzelas for an extended period of time puts you at risk for hearing loss. You can lose hearing from listening to sounds at 100 decibels for only 15 minutes. The vuvuzela's sound is the equivalent of 127 decibels.

i'd love to have my own vuvuzela to be blown to your ears whenever you ignore me,Marc Anthony -.-
and i can't believe you've been lurking my mind the whole day.can you please just get out of my dreams?

When Underdogs Arise

i know it's 2010,which means it's a World Cup year again! so i should be getting into a football mood rather than my usual love sickness issues.this year,i support 4 teams : Japan,Brazil,Argentina and Spain..unfortunately,3 out of 4 of my favourite teams have been eliminated.Spain is my last hope.i was mostly disappointed of Argentina.Messi what happened to you??the game was so neck-and-neck and suddenly the Argentinian somehow got a bit too nervous,enough to let them go off-guard.the defense totally sucked,and we could see that the German team penetrated it easily.4-0 FTW!! worst game i've ever seen right after the match between brazil and holland.we can see how disappointed Kaka was when his teammates missed a couple of open goals.gosh...seriously,it's been the longest two days of my life,having known that both the teams that i support had been such easy rivals to their opponents,at least Japan had an honorable defeat.the Japan vs Paraguay match ended up in a tie with the score 0-0,by which was then broken by penalty kicks and won by Paraguay,with an extremely tiny difference in,it's down to the match between Spain and Paraguay.i have my fingers crossed.don't let me down now Espana! nail it :DD

well,at least i DID spot a couple of heartthrobs who played well and are pretty good-looking in their own respective ways.

messi ~~~ from the Argentinian team.

Thomas Mueller from German
(does he really look like Beckham?)

Gonzalo Higuain from Argentina

Keisuke Honda from Japan (right)

Ricardo Kaka from Brazil

i'm not too sure when the next match will be.let us all hope that Spain will make it to the semifinals,to meet with Germany! now THAT's what you call a game! :D

have fun guys :) don't get too stressed more Asians,no more Latinos,no more Africans and no more Americans in the World Cup.might as well rename the whole thing as European Cup or anything equivalent,LMAO.

that's all folks.i'll see you soon.muahx~