When Dreams and Reality Collide

i need a dream catcher,the similar one that Jijie gave to me on my 15th birthday,one that's fully-functional.why?

lately,there has been a strange chain of dreams among my friends,and the funniest thing is,the dreams are all connected to one another and somewhat signifies some sort of hidden meaning.all the dreams have one thing in common,me.i want this to end because it seemed to have gotten out of hand.

on the first night of this strange chain,Ily dreamed that all of us were adults and we attended an alumnae.Jared came but the chemistry between me and him is not as strong as before.we greeted each other with fake smiles and barely even say a word.and the oddest part is,Jared came to my new house and carved this phrase on my concrete wall "I Miss You,Buddy".a little strange to be perfectly honest.we seemed to have been into a conflict that lasted for years to the extent where the both of us refused to speak to each other.

and you wanna know what the ironic outcome is?in reality,a few days later,i did get into a conflict with Jared and we haven't spoken to each other for a couple of days already.

on the second night of all things bizarre,Deila dreamed that Marco and I came running from our respective classes and embraced each other in front of the hallway leading to my class.the rest were shocked,but then they knew,in the dream,that Marco and I were already an item.above all ironies,why did deila dream of us?why wasn't it my dream instead?

so..all the dreams had me in them,and one of them had became a reality.what about the second one?what will it be?i know it's ridiculous to believe all these as it might be just another one of those coincidences,but hey.if you were in my shoes,you would get freaked out too.for now,i'm not gonna jump into any conclusions.the future will unfold itself soon and whatever it is,i'll be ready for it.

btw,I WASN'T CHOSEN FOR PLKN! jyeahh! hello post-SPM plans! :DD

-how long will the conflict last?only time will tell.

McFly-ing Mika Love from the UK :))

that's what everything is right now.

HAHA ..I love you,Mika :)

"Make it my fault, win the game

Point the finger, place the blame

It does me up and down,

It doesn't matter now.

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.

This is not about emotion,

I don't need a reason not to care what you say,

Or what happened in the end.

This is my interpretation,

And it don't, don't make sense.

....

If half of what you said is true,

And half of what I didn't do could be different,

Would it make it better?

If we forget the things we know.

Would we have somewhere to go?

The only way is down, I can see that now.

....

It's really not such a sacrifice"

-My Interpretation by MIKA :')

That self-explanatory song has always been a major relief and solution to most of my problems.at a glance,it may seem to look like a song that speaks only emotionally,but if you look at the bigger picture,i'm pretty sure that even the wisest people will agree that this song is regarding optimism,something that brings you forward when you feel that life is no longer worthwhile.reminiscing most of the conflicts i've had in life,it's safe to say that my problems are mostly originated from friends,only some came from love and my family.i'm tired of giving in all the time,i have a heart too and i have feelings.if i keep giving in,what will i get in return?i may have somehow changed into an introvert,but i'm not saying i'm changing myself into a push-over too.introvert means passiveness ( inequivalent to) push-over personality.i'm 17 and a half now,it's about time i stood up for myself.so what if i'm alone?i stand in my own line and i have my own army- my determination.who needs friends if all they do is back-stab you/upset you.right now,i admit that i'm surviving life by practicing hypocrisy.i admit i'm imperfect and most probably don't even deserve to have friends,but what the heck.as if any of you are perfect yourselves.also,i confess that i only like a small portion of my friendship circle.at the moment,i would like to have more time to think and more time to react.patience... i'm sorting things out both in my mind and in my heart.i'll get back to you when i'm mentally stable again.

i know i'm a little bit off topic but....MCFLY!!! i saw them on MTV the other day.it's that old video of them 'All About You'.the video reminded me of this movie called Just My Luck.i recalled discovering McFly upon watching it and now i'm fangirling over them all over again!

my favourite McFly is none other than Danny Jones (brown-haired,1st one from the left).i loveeee his hair,his voice AND his guitar skills.

enough about McFly.looky2 what i got from Chantelle!

i've been waiting for this parcel for weeks and finally it came into my mailbox! thanks for the MJ tribute magazine and that lovely Mika Hearts bracelet! in case all of you are wondering,it's a tradition among Mikafanclub-ers to switch gifts via mail,despite which continent you live in.we go beyond boundaries to reach each other's hearts.to sum it up,we have a term for such doing,and we MFC-ers would call it Mika-Mailing.Chantelle sent this all the way from the UK to Hui Kings (in Hong Kong) and me (here in Malaysia).i'm still wondering what i should send to her as a thoughtful reply..hmmmm...

well i guess that's about it.and marco..i was worried today.worried that you might find out something you shouldn't before i get the chance to explain.thus,my tweet "what if we end up like AE and AM?" (AE and AM were bestfriends,like Marco and me,and they fell for each other,then somehow things didn't turn out the way they wanted it to be).

then i got this reply...

thanks sya :) glad you understand.