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damn..im so retarded i can eat all the books i'm reading.the exam is driving me haywire and totally nuts! yada yada..bosan sudah tengok buku bertimbun.not that i hate school.there's a brightside to all these.NO CHORES,NO DISTURBANCES, but NO EXTRA INTERNET HOURS la.huhu.but it's quite ok since there's only gonna be one subject per day,oklah kan,can focus on one at a time.wah,so much for falling out,apparently i took a one-second reverse and crash! back into the pothole,well,just one tyre but still!! dammit,i'm not as strong as i used to be,haha.so maybe you're gonna say 'i told you so' or 'so i've heard'.i didn't know what i was thinking people,it's like my brain had a major,sudden shutdown in the midst of all of it.it was a smooth journey,until once again i met him.i lost all my fluency and cheerfulness for some reason.am i a little too not over him?i thought i was,really.this is how much a touch can affect all the wires,nuts and bolts in your brain.phew! i have said it many times now,i absolutely hate falling in love.it keeps you from being yourself,it keeps your mind on that certain person and not your health or other important things,it keeps you from going somewhere you yearn to go and it makes you do crazy things! damn..really.what i feel inside right now is a big war between my heart and my mind.my mind had accepted the fact that he's just not mr right,but my heart argues by opposing that thought,all over the slight accident touch.shit! i'm a punk rocker people,not some cheesy person who has nothing to live for but love (sorry if this may sound offensive).sooo his hand accidently touched mine,BIG DEAL.i accidently hit a lot of guys too.fall out! now! lol.reminds me of this song called crumbs by disagree:

Big world
Says he wants to see the light for once,
Well maybe if you try

It's so sad
Babe don't look so sad
I've got it wrong today

And if she doesn't go your way
Look up to blue skies and say hey
It's ok it's ok

well i always loved indie bands,they always play a big role in my life,and their songs had been the soundtrack of my emotions for years.their music understands me better than myself,lol.so i guess that's about it.gonna be having exam for three weeks,toodles for now!

-OVER IT..really.

point of no return

Point Of No Return
woah..phantom of the opera,haha.well that's not my point here.see that picture over there?ever heard of the song 'point of no return' in the high profile,all-time fav musical phantom of the opera?ok,let me make it clear for you.i am sick of being labelled as 'Girl In Denial',truth is i'm not that weak anymore.i have gathered up all the strength i need to move on.let the past be the past,gotta find the future.downfoot is a route,a narrow one,which restricts me from making any 'U-turns'.if i ever do,i will surely fall back into the same pothole.idiotic as it sounds,there are possibilities though.that's why i'm taking this narrow road,to make sure i wont fall into the same pothole over again.but but but!! when the going gets tough,the tough gets going,is it so?my 'going' seem to be filled with a bunch of paparazzis all fully-equipped with their cameras and binoculars,stalking my every movement to find the latest scoops about my life.wtf! i'm barely a celebrity people,why should you nose into my business?ever since i've been close to someone,everyone seem to be interested to know our progress.rumors are being spread that i am scandal-prone.everything comes from the friendliness i portray.hmm..when will this ever come to an end?

Lxxxxx
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