Only Exception or Another Mistake?

"When I was younger I saw my daddy
cry and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and
I watched as he tried to re-assemble it.
And my mamma swore she would
never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if does not exist.
But darling..

You are the only exception (x4)

Maybe I know somewhere deep in
my soul that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable, distance.
And up until now I swore to myself
that I'm content with loneliness,
'cause none of it was ever worth the risk.

But you are the only exception (x4)

I've got a tight grip on reality,
but I can't let go of whats part of me here.
I know you're leaving in the morning, when you wake up,
leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream.

Whooa..

You are the only exception (x8)
And I'm on my way to believing.. (x2)"

- Only Exception by Paramore

did i mention Paramore's coming to town and i can't go? :(

anyway....

this post goes especially to my best friend Hadzrin aka Jerin,this is for you.thanks for waking me up from this absurdity,thanks for kicking me back into reality,thanks for helping me end such a surreal dream,thanks for bringing me back on my feet when i was in cloud nine heading for an unexpected crash.you're a true friend and i'll always appreciate you the same no matter what,even when i'm married in the future.i'm gonna stop trying because it's not worth it anymore,i've been in this route it seems and i'm making the same mistakes,you made me realise that and made me turn to a new route.thank you thank you thank you,i love you best friend :) (not 'that' kind of love,more to a best friend kind of love,hehe).

it's safe to say... GOOD BYE MR M! hello SPM :)

"so,so what?? i'm still a rockstar,i got my rock moves,and i don't need you! guess what,i'm having more fun and now that we're done i'm gonna show you tonight i'm alright! i'm just fine!"

-So What? by Pink.

blasting my headphones with punk rock tunes,i know that's not a proper way to handle depression but it seems to be my perfect way in doing it.so be it..say what you wanna say,i'm me.

glad my Afi will always be there through thick or thin.

Afi's Minor Operation - Destring,Cleaning,Restring

talk about hard work.i needed to convince my mom into taking me all the way to Damansara Perdana to get a new set of strings for upgrading purposes,get a metronome/tuner (of which i named R2D2)

and then go through 6 adventurous hours of detaching the 8 gauge strings (or as Cikgu J would call it,fishing line) and then upgrading them to a set of 10 gauge strings.and the result:

Cikgu said there's a little excess string but it could be rectified with

more practice.

which is why i think i need to do a 'follow-up treatment' on Afi.his low E string and A string is making some really annoying buzzing noises when i pick them,must be the improper winding.need to show Cikgu the adjustments,ahhhhh... hehe.i hate letting him down,he goes all out to mold me into a guitarist as amazing as he is.

speaking of high expectations,i'm guessing my Chemistry and Physics teachers have such high hopes in seeing me ace in their respective subjects too,especially Puan Tang Wan See.earlier today,not to brag but it must have been my day,my Chemistry marks (although not even close to my actual target) seem to be quite something to be proud of.there was once,in Chemistry class,Puan Tang asked us a question,a tough one,and said "if even Azliyana can't answer this,i'm gonna vomit blood".funny?you wish,if you were in my shoes,it wouldn't be as funny.it just shows how high she expects of me and it's not that i'm complaining,it's just that,i'm afraid to disappoint her.

my teachers,especially Puan Nor Rizan,Puan Siti Rahmah,Miss Intan,Puan Lim,Mr Darwis,Mr Ben,Mr Zeelen,Puan Tang,Cikgu JD and the rest of my teachers,i won't let all of you down.you won't regret having me as your student,i'll make all of you proud someday.i'll be a straight A student rockstar.just wait and see :)

btw Marco,can you please smile and let me know you're not mad at me? :( you have no idea how much i miss you.