Peace Of Mind

They are not 'the one' just yet, but give it time.

There is someone marginally in your life just-now. You like them, but they are not 'the one.' This is not a bad thing, as 'The best things' come to those who wait. It may take weeks, it may take months, or it may even take years, but you'll build-up a friendship with this person, and the friendship will glow more and more each day, but the glow won't be the light as we see from a light-bulb. It will be the glow of love, and since only two people will be part of this particular friendship inside that glow, then you will both only be 'in-love' with each-other. This light of love will banish all shadows, and you will be a beacon and inspiration to all in this world of sceptical shadows. Remember, love is a gift. Do you give and accept? The choice is yours.

this gave me some sort of serenity knowing that love is friendship set on fire.there's no harm starting off as friends,so yes.i guess i'll give you a chance,Marco.if you can prove yourself worthy,i'll let you stay.i'll unlock that light house you've always wanted to go up to,and we can spend all day and all night gazing at the stars at night through the windows.

i have faith in you.

When Only the Fortune Cookies Understand

i know how predictions can be overrated,especially being forbidden by my religion but to be perfectly honest,i read fortune cookies not because i wanna know my fortune,it's because of the useful sayings,or as I like to call it,"Fortune Cookie talk kind of advice".they're always brief but meaningful.i'm not saying i'm too dependent on them either,but lately i seem to get the right advice at the right time.coincidence yes,and it helps me a lot too.this is what i got for today,DO NOT MAKE EXTRA WORK FOR YOURSELF.makes sense,i've been too busy with life to bother about my inner feelings and thoughts.i'm too preoccupied with my goals that i've forgotten to focus on the steps leading to it.i'm overworked apparently.i'm too stressed out and i get emotional breakdowns very easily.my heart is so fragile now,it can shatter any time,under any circumstances.the people around me are not helping either.they're only making things worse.

for the time being,i'm gonna try to divert my attention from all these unrealistic novella scenes.i'll be an introvert for now.apart from music,you'll be hearing nothing from me,not a word.i mean it.i don't think i'll be talking that much anymore,except for necessary things.no more nonsense for me.

and marco,you're just a figment of my imagination.go on and live in that little cottage of yours forever for all I care,i'm not bothered anymore.i'm done waiting.if you need me,give a knock on my door but beware,my guard is no longer down,he's back on duty.i won't be responsible for any injuries that you might encounter while you're at it.

seriously..thanks for acting like you care.

and for the rest of you,i will NOT apologize for something that i did not do.be a gentleman and just grow up.up to you,you're none of my concern anymore.time has come for me to aid my own heartache,i'm done trying to be everyone's councilor too.it's always an output,never an input.i'd rather talk to a fortune cookie than listen to any of your crappy talks.

i'm fed up.good bye everyone,nice knowing all of you.i'll be back to my old self when my mood regenerates.IF it regenerates that is,which will take a while i think.meanwhile,have a nice week everyone.

oh and cikgu J,thanks for believing in my talent and my passion.i owe you a lot.i'll try to compensate somehow :) love you loads cikgu.