If I Ever Leave This World Alive

"If I Ever Leave This World Alive lyrics
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll thank for all the things you did in my life
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll come back down and sit beside your
feet tonight
Wherever I am you'll always be
More than just a memory
If I ever leave this world alive

If I ever leave this world alive
I'll take on all the sadness
That I left behind
If I ever leave this world alive
The madness that you feel will soon subside
So in a word don't shed a tear
I'll be here when it all gets weird
If I ever leave this world alive

So when in doubt just call my name
Just before you go insane
If I ever leave this world
Hey I may never leave this world
But if I ever leave this world alive

She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right

She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right
Yeah should be alright"

-If I Ever Leave This World Alive by Flogging Molly

it's almost the end of Ramadhan and September 25th is approaching.the nearer it comes,the less pain i have to bear.pain of what?why,the pain of grief my dear friends.i lost dad last year on this date,but my whole family had expected it.so the pain wasn't as large as the one my friend,Jemima had to bear.she lost half her family.no,i'm not trying to make others' life seem worse than mine,i'm just being grateful that God didn't test my patience that much.i do hope she's doing alright,i miss her a lot and i'm pretty much worried about her.anyway,since it's been almost a year since my dad left us,it reminded me of this movie called PS I Love You.her husband passed away of brain tumor and left her a series of notes to help her get back on her feet,after a year,she stopped feeling his 'presence' and managed to go on with her life.the song lyrics i posted up there is the theme song of that movie,and what i love the best about the movie is this quote from Holly and Gerry's letters.

Gerry Kennedy: Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you

Holly Kennedy: Dear Gerry, you said you wanted me to fall in love again, and maybe one day I will. But there are all kinds of love out there. This is my one and only life, And its a great and terrible and short and endless thing, and none of us come out of it alive. I don't have a plan... except, it's time my mom laughed again. She has never seen the world... she has never seen Ireland. So, I'm taking her back where we started... Maybe now she'll understand. I don't know how you did it, but you brought me back from the dead. I'll write to you again soon. P.S... Guess what?

R.I.P Dad.Al Fatihah.

Introducing,Haji Azlee bin Mansor..my dad.

(he's physically gone but spiritually,he's still here,in our hearts)

sometimes i wonder,if I die,would anyone bother?how would everyone i know and love react?what's left of me is there to cherish?or is there none at all? here's what Kak Jass thinks:

Yana-

I'll remember the creative & enthusiastic girl, who I see a lot of potential in, but sometimes need a lil more drive if she wants to go further (don't be angry, when I was your age I'd argue this until the sun goes down.. but it is my honest opinion). I'll also remember how you're not afraid to be different. I like that in you.

-how will YOU remember me by?

How to Break both your guitar AND your heart

"Sara: Relationships are for people who are just waiting for something better to come along."

Hitch (2005)

i guess today is exactly as what they would say,never count your chickens before the eggs hatch.never expect something out of an uncertainty.the saying makes perfect sense now.i thought the day was gonna be perfect,but heck,once again,my luck took a 360 degree turn.it all started when i wanted to learn a new guitar skill,the pinched harmonics.to tell you the truth,it's NOT a walk in the park,it's really complex even when i'm using electric guitar,but that's not my point.as i was too preoccupied with the new skill,disaster struck.i could have sworn i had a firm grip on Afi the guitar,but unfortunately i didn't.the only physical support i had for him is his strap,it snapped and then CRASSSSHHH! Afi tumbled flat on the floor with a loud bang,sounded kinda like a motorbike running into a metal pole,that's how loud it was.i inspected him from top to bottom,and this was what i discovered :

observe the red lines that mark the perimeters of the large scratches.sigh...my guitar will never be the same :( luckily,only the exterior part of Afi was damaged,his inners are still okay,which means he's durable,hehe.damn you destiny and gravity!

it doesn't stop there,worse comes worse,apparently what i wrote in my song is actually true. "Marco,you're blindfolded.You'd see an open door and walk away like you've always done before".it's clear to me how IGNORANT you are,Marco.when will you take a pause and just think?i know that you're more than aware about how i feel,in fact,the whole school does despite how hard i try to hide it from them,to pretend that i'm okay and that my love for you is just another figment of my imagination.if you think you're gonna remain with your stand,then fine.i won't force you,i won't bother you nor will i ever ug your life anymore.i'll make this a history,although a painful one.i'm giving up,thanks for everything.thanks A LOT.

if you think you know everything about me,about how i feel,about everything that i keep locked up within me,THINK AGAIN.

"Rose:A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets."

Titanic (1997)